Friday, December 31, 2004

Aries In Love

Aries is the cardinal-fire sign which translates into life loving and highly energized and this describes their needs concerning love as well. As a partner they make life exciting, albeit occasionally tiring, and you cannot help but feel rather joyful and light hearted when you're in their company. It's that blend of innocence (the lamb) with pure power (the ram) that is so captivating about an Aries mate. They don't understand the meaning of the word routine, however, and boredom is the number one killer of Aries romances. Aries loves as boldly and as strongly as it experiences life. From sports to personal challenges Aries are usually not happy unless they are moving after something. With Mars as their ruling planet oftentimes their entire lives are about channeling and putting that immense power to work for them. It's not uncommon to find an Aries firmly committed to a long term volatile arrangement that leaves those around them wondering why they would stay. The truth is they often thrive on that kind of intensity and it can do far less damage than existing within a relationship that has grown routine and stagnant. When an Aries loves they LOVE.The partner is hoisted up onto a pedestal whether they want to be there or not and they become a treasure to be protected and guarded passionately. The love of an Aries life often becomes the driving motivation for their challenging goals and the phrase, "I did this for YOU" is one heard in many of the best Aries relationships.

Aries Sexuality
An Aries sexuality is driven, powerful and almost a feat of showmanship when they are truly captivated. Since Aries tend to be action/goal oriented sex can become a series of higher plateaus involving anything their fertile imaginations can conjure up. Aries are the zodiac show-off and the bedroom isn't excluded from their dramatic and captivating ability to get partners undivided attention. The more appreciated they feel the more they invest in their lovemaking and private boundaries exist only to give an Aries something to leap over. Marathons of passion, spontaneous liaisons in the most unexpected places and inexhaustible stamina are all part of the Aries basic sexual make-up.

The Long Term Story
Lots of pampering and a lot of attention are needed with an Aries lover as they thrive on feeling they are number one in your life. They love to do the initial chasing and are usually not attracted to being chased but once their heart is given you can't ever over-do your displays of affection. While they can be jealous and possessive you cannot show the same qualities and any kind of clinging is a sure fire way to drive them into new pastures. Under all the Aries bravado and show is actually a rather innocent child who simply wants to explore the wonderful world around them and to be appreciated. The more encouraged they are in either area the more exuberant they become.

Positive Traits in Love
Exuberance, expressiveness, passion, generosity, adoration, protectiveness, adventuress, fun loving, creative and energized lovemaking, and devotion.

Negative Traits in Love
Temperamental, jealous, possessive, ego oriented, inconsiderate, reckless, fickle

What an Aries Likes
Being number one, A positive attitude, A life loving comrade, A. partner who has style or a 'look', Being Seen Getting gifts, Loyalty, Being active together. Romance and dazzle.

What an Aries Dislikes
Being bored, Being chased, Sloppiness in a mate, Criticism, Anything mundane, Feeling unappreciated, Feeling inferior, Losing, Having to repeat things. Displays of insecurity.

Taurus In Love

Taurus is a stable and earthy sign and their partnerships require an equally strong and centered base. There is a definite serious approach to life which is held by every Taurus in one degree or another and a partner who can at least understand this facet of them is important. They make generous, loyal and extremely supportive mates when they feel the relationship is true and secure but getting them to that point generally takes a great deal of time and effort. Taurus cherishes waiting, watching and being assured of something's value before they invest their heart and feelings. They will retreat at any sign of flakiness or instability and once a Taurus retreats getting them back to the point they started at is difficult, if not impossible.Although they are slow to trust and give once they do their trust is almost a magical thing and very little can shake it. Even when the generosity is not earned a Taurus deeply committed will very often hold on to the smallest shred of hope that everything is all right. As partners they are homebodies and enjoy their surroundings and all things that they can possess and embrace. They intuitively collect and protect and their 'people' often fall into this category. A Taurus expects loyalty and support from their mate and also to be the boss in the relationship.

Taurus Sexuality
Earthy, sensual and caring are hallmarks of Taurus sexuality. For Taurus sex is a natural, healthy and all important part of their relationship and they immerse themselves in it. Love and sex are one and the same to a Taurus and it is only when firmly committed that most can truly let go and enjoy. Bedroom Olympics and exciting kinky escapades are not their cup of tea and they tend to hold onto their personal favorites. But they believe in sharing their pleasure and work diligently to make sure their partner enjoys the passion as much as they do.

The Long Term Story
Keeping it together over the long term requires a thorough understanding of the Taurean ways. As a fixed earth sign they are almost immovable, especially if they feel they are being forced into something. Knowing their ways and encouraging any change ever so slowly assures the relationship of moving forward and remaining vibrant. It takes a great deal to truly anger a Taurus once it is in love but disloyalty will usually be the ultimate factor. Yet as slow as they are to attach they are equally slow to detach and break-ups tend to hang on eternally. Once a Taurus truly closes its heart, however, there is very little chance they will open back up. The

Problem Zone
In a relationship with a Taurus most of the troubles will emerge over jealousy, possessiveness and inability to change. They can be immovable forces when they so desire and if they have decided they are perfectly happy with something exactly as it is no one can force them to change. There is a tendency for them to see people they love as cherished personal objects and this can turn into a very strong jealousy factor. Letting go can also be a problem for the same reasons.

Positive Traits in Love
Loyal, dedicated, generous, protective, caring, doting, understanding, stability.

Negative Traits
Jealousy, possessiveness, control, immobility, over-seriousness.

What an Taurus Likes
Feeling secure, Being pampered, Kept promises, Sensibility, Being on time, Together time at home, Sharing good meals, Unhurried affection, Commitments, Stability in a mate, Getting special gifts.

What an Taurus Dislikes
Being hurried, Being told what to do, Flightiness in a partner, Unexpected changes in plans, Loud, noisy party scenes, Careless or unappealing environments, Forgetfulness in a mate.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Think Of Me

Think of me
Think of me fondly,
When we've said goodbye...
Remember me.
Once in a while
Please promise me you'll try...
When you find that once again you long
to take your heart back and be free
If you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me
We never said our love was evergreen
or as enchanting as the sea,
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me
Think of all the things we've shared and seen
Don't think about the things we tried
Think of me
Think of me waking, silent and resigned
Imagine me trying to hard to put you from my mind
Recall those days,
Back on all those times
On all the things we'll never do
There will never be a day when I don't think of you.
We never said our love was ever green
or as enchanting as the sea
But please promise me that sometimes
You will think..
Of me!

Friday, December 24, 2004

Our Song...

This song is our song next to Bi Wo Xing Fu by Chen Xiao Dong.
I can't remember the exact day or date. But all I can remember was that you dedicated this song at the NYP Engineering canteen for me. It wasn't our anniversary, it was just another ordinary day at school...
I was touched and felt embarrassed at the same time. You simply melted my heart when the DeeJay announced your dedication and this song was played over the loudspeakers. Although you didn't say anything romantic to me but from your smile, I knew that you still do love me despite all my flaws (and so do I)...
From that eventful day, everytime this song is played over the radio, in a restaurant, in a shopping mall, etc.. it just brings me back to the history of how we fell in love, survived through numerous of 'obstacles', how much I love you and how much you prove to love me too. Then, when these thoughts start running through my mind, I often get into sort of a dreamy mood and you will spot me smile sweetly to myself...
Never knew myself to be ever falling head over heels with a guy... Guess this is the power of love!


Only Love

2a.m and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads of love once again
You're telling me that you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can say- try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray that you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough- if we'll learn to trust

But only love can say- try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray that you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'd give our dreams just one more chance
Don't let this be our last goodbye

But only love can say- try again or walk away
But I believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So I'll just play my part
And pray that you'll have a change of heart
But I can't make you see it through
That's something only love can do




-Trademark-



Tuesday, December 21, 2004

H&A Ring!!!!!

It is such a wonderful feeling to be able to get something you really desire and want...
I finally managed to buy the H&A ring from SK jewellery. This is the ring that I have been longing for and even been waiting for the past one year.
Although it is pretty expensive and nearly cost me half of my bonus, I bought it with no regrets.
: )


Friday, December 17, 2004

Power Of Love

When a guy really falls in love and becomes faithful to his beloved, his change in his character would really shock everyone around him..
His egoist heart will uncompromisingly softens when he willingly gives his heart to the lady he falls in love with.. Furthermore, he'll be willing to sacrifice everything and do anything for this lucky woman... No matter how egoist he may be, tears would fall from his cheeks when his heart is broken... It's not easy to see guys who would shed tears of love for the woman he truly loves.
20 signs to recognise the strong love a guy holds for the girl he really loves...
1. he willingly do anything and everything for her with sincerity not coercion.
2. he constantly wants to humour her and tends to be more talkative.
3. he tends to advise her more as he truly loves her and wants her to be a better person.
4. he tries to restrict her freedom due to his overwhelming jealousy.
5. he constantly fears of her.
6. he always monitors her movements as he feels insecure.
7. he hates the idea of other guys being close to her.
8. he becomes jealous and sensitive when his beloved pays less attention to him
9. he becomes the most hardworking person and would be willing to help her to do anything and everything.
10. he becomes restless when she is away for too long.
11. he cares for her more than he does for himself.
12. he constantly asks if her if she feels loved by him as he feels his love is greater than her's.
13. he would not be bothered with other girls who don't hold any importance to him.
14. he will try to spend a lot of time with her even though he knows he'll end up waiting for her.
15. he praises her in front of others
16. if she leaves him, he can't trust any other girls and wishes for her to come back to him.
17. when there is a third party, he loses his mind and is willing to do anything to fight for her
18. he makes sure he ensures her safety at all times
19. he would be like a small kid who fights for constant attention from his beloved.
20. he treats her as his most trusted one and would be willing to sacrifice all of his wealth and even if it would cost him his life for her
Therefore, it is not easy to find guys who would shed their tears just for gals.. so pls treasure them...
I have already found this guy and I would also love and cherish him too...

Thursday, December 09, 2004

A Romantic Story...

A story that touched my heart. Hope it touches yours too...



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When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy. I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
This was the scene of ten years ago. The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid, I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affections between us seemed to ebb. She was a civil servant. Every morning, we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes. Dew came into my life.
It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her. Dew said, "You are the kind of man who best draws girls eyeballs." Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we just married, my wife said, "Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls." Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife. But I couldn't help doing so. I moved Dew's hands aside and said, "You go to select some furniture,O.K.? I ve got something to do in the company." Obviously, she was unhappy, because I had promised her to go and see with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me. However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt. Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening, she would be busy preparing dinner. I would be sitting in front of the TV. The dinner would be ready soon. Then we watched TV together or, I would be lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.
One day, I said to her in a slightly joking way, "Suppose we divorce, what will you do?" She stared at me for a few seconds without a word. Apparently, she believed that divorce was something too far away from her mind. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.
The next day, my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I could read that there were some hurt in her eyes. Once again, Dew said to me, "He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we can live together." I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.
That evening, when my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. "I've got something to tell you." I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again, I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly, I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. "I want to divorce you." I raised the serious topic calmly. She didn't seem to be much annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, Why?"
I avoided her question. This so-called answer turned her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, "You are not a man!"
At that night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew. With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a stabbing pain in my heart. The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said. Finally, she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me, her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.
One late night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fell fast asleep. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.
She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce and during that month we must live as normal life as possible.
Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken. She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, "He Ning, do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?" This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, "I remember"
"You carried me in your arms," she continued, "so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning."
I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage with a romantic form.
I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. "No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce."she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable. My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We had even treated each other as a strangers.
So when I carried her out for the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, "Daddy is holding Mummy in his arms." His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the living room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, "Let us start from today, don't tell our son." I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for bus, I drove to office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked intimately at this woman carefully for along time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.
On the third day, she whispered to me, "The outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there..."
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became more vague.
On the fifth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc. I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. By then, I felt it was easier to carry my wife. Perhaps, the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, "It seems not difficult to carry you now."
On the sixth day, she was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, "All my dresses have grown fatter."
I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain. Subconsciously, I reached out a hand to touch her head. Our son came in at the moment. "Dad, it's time to carry mum out." He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms,walking from the bedroom, through the living room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.
On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, "Actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old." I held her tightly and said, "Both you and I didn't notice that our life was lack of such intimacy..."
I went straight to Dew's house. I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, "Sorry, Dew, I won't opt for the divorce. I'm serious." She looked at me, astonished. Then, she touched my forehead. "You got no fever". She said. I moved her hand off my head.
"Sorry, Dew, " I said, "I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I finally understand that since the day that I carried her into the home and she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you."
Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into cry.
I walked downstairs and drove to the office. I passed a floral shop on the way. I went in and I ordered a bouquet of her favourite flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked if I wanted to write anything on greeting words on the card. I smiled and wrote, 'I will carry you out every morning until we are old."
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Monday, December 06, 2004

A Big Thanks!

THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO HAVE HELPED IN MY RECOVERY IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER...
THANKS TO ALL THOSE WHO PRAYED FOR MY RECOVERY...
THANKS TO MY PARENTS FOR THE GOOD FOOD AND THE PAMPERING...
THANKS TO MY COLLEAGUES WHO TOOK CARE OF ME AND SORRY IF I WAS F.O.N... CYA PEOPLE NEXT YEAR 17 JAN...
THANKS TO MY FAMILY MEMBERS FOR TAKING THE EFFORT TO VISIT ME AND FOR THEIR GIFTS...
THANKS TO MY FRIENDS FOR THEIR CONCERN AND CARE PLUS PRAYERS FOR ME TO GET WELL SOON...
THANKS TO MY BAKU TO TAKING CARE OF ME AND SACRIFICES THAT YOU HAVE MADE JUST TO SEE ME RECOVER WELL...
THANK GOD I SURVIVED THIS OPERATION!!!

Friday, December 03, 2004

Mini Laprotomy for Haemorrhagic Cyst

I was recently hospitalized for an emergency laprotomy due to a haemorrhagic ovarian cyst. It was like so horrible, man! Not only was it a painful experience, it was a pretty eventful one. Why would I say that it was eventful one? It is because after going through this operation, I managed to see the true colours of many close people around me...
My dear, would be the first one I would like to complement. It simply shocked me on the types of sacrifices that he made for me! He took two days off from work to stay over at the hospital to take care of me overnight. Through those two nights, I was so vulnerable and couldn't move even an inch. Therefore, I had to wake him up frequently even for the slightest thing, for example to drink water and to cover or remove the blanket. Hence, he didn't get sufficient sleep. Then, after my discharge, he stayed over at my place for three days just to make sure I was able to recover to my independent status despite knowing the fact that he would lose his precious sleep yet again. I am so touched and grateful... My dear is one guy who takes his sleep very seriously. He firmly believes that his sleep is very precious just like diamonds to a girl. I was scolded by him many times throughout this relationship because I disturbed his sleep. However, this time, he was able to sacrifice it all just for me. Not to forget, he also took leave from his 'work' to care for me. In total, he took 3 days off. It may sound little, but to me, it is sufficient to prove his love for me. He also did my wound dressings and took great care of me. All these, nitty gritty details is good enough to let me know that he does truly love me. I guess I had always doubted the amount of love he had me throughtout this relationship because he is one guy who never says 'I love you' or does romantic or obvious actions to let me know that he loves me. Well... what else can I say... I love him too! Hee!
My colleagues were all so nice to me. They gave me the V.I.P rooom of the ward. Their services were wonderful, no wonder many of them were complemented by patients. However, there was one staff that I particularly point out that was really uncompassionate... I won't say her name cause I would never know who reads this blog... All I can say is that she was really not as nice as I thought her to be. I almost wanted to write the feedback form about her but decided not to. Didn't want her to get into any trouble. If it had to be, let other patients feedback about her. (Anyway, she already had quite a few complaints by patients or their relatives.)


Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Love

Love is patient,
Love is kind,
Love isn't jealous
It doesn't sing its own praises,
It isn't arrogant,
It isn't rude
It doesn't think about itself,
It isn't irritable
It doesn't keep track of wrong
It isn't happy when injustice is done,
but it is happy with the truth.
Love never stops being patient,
Never stops believing,
Never stops hoping,
Never gives up.
Love never comes to an end.




1 Corinthians 13

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

A Soulful Relationship

If you're not married, share this with a friend. If you are married, share it with your spouse or other married couples and reflect on it.

An African proverbs states, "Before you get married, keep both eyes open, and after you are married, close one eye"

Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or low self esteem, make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really important.

Once you have decided to commit to someone, overtime, his or her flaws, vulnerabilities, pet peeves and differences will become more obvious.

If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you've got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you. You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams, weaknesses and strengths.

You are two unique individuals children of God who have decided to share a life together.

Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect for each other? Do you bring out the best in each other? Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control? What do you bring to the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You can't take someone to the altar to alter him or her. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay. If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment and "a life", you won't find youself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for you pain.

Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness and selfishness are not the ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and lasting relationship! Seeking status, sex, wealth and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relatonship.

What keeps a relationship strong?

Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of humour, sharing household tasks, some get away time without business or children and daily exchanges (a meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note). Leave a nice message on the voicemail or send or nice email.

Sharing common goals and intersts. Growth is important. Grow together, not away from each other, giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure. Allow your mate to have outside interest. You can't always be together. Give each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment. Don't try to control one another.

Learn each other's family situation. Respect his or her parents regardless.

Don't put pressure on each other for material goods. Remember for richer or poorer. If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace the passion.

The difference between 'United' and 'Untied' is where you put the 'i'...



To The Nurses Of The World

You evangelists of encouragement, you are so much more than you know.
You have never let what you couldn't do stop you from doing all your could do.
You are salespeople; your briefcase are filled with a product called hope.
You are explorers, knowing that once you have gone as far as you can see, you will still see farther.
You are singers spreading the melody of consideration.
You are lawyers making a case for life.
You are authors helping others add more pages to their book of memories.
You are comedians dispensing the medicine of laughter.
You are magicians creating miracles that inspire patients and families.
Like King arthur and Joan of Arc, you are warriors battling against the villians of negativity.
Dorothy would have reached Oz much faster in the company of one nurse.
For no one can practice your profession unless they already possess a brain brimming with wisdom, boundless courage and a heart filled with love.
You are living proof that humanity is created in the image and likeness of God, and the name of that God is LOVE.





John Wayne Schlatter

Love In Your Hands

The old man lay all alone and stared out through his haze.
I knew his eyes were almost gone and wondered at his gaze.
Perhaps he saw his childhood on carefree running legs.
But his legs were long-since lost to diabetes' grasp.
To change his bed and bathe him was my only task.
Not wanting much to startle him, I called out softly, "Sir."
He stirred his body towards me glazed eyes focused near.
"Who's that? I don"t know the voice. What you doing here?"
Name spoken, "I just came to to fix your bed and such."
"Watch out! Don't hurt me none." he shrank back from my touch.
"Them other ones, they are rough you know, they jerks and pulls me round.
And sometime I gets afraid they'll drop me to the ground!"
I couldn't lift him all alone not causing fear or pain.
No one around, and so I went to get the lifting frame.
We talked and slowly did the things we had to do.
Refreshed and dressed, he grasped my hand
And said, "Son, God bless you.
Some folks is rough and short, and mean
and though you be a man,
I wanna tell you something,
You got love in your hands."





Ken Cyr

The Florence Nightingale Pledge

I solemnly pledge myself to God and in the presence of this assembly to pass my life in purity and to practice my profession faithfully.

I will abstain from whatever is deleterious and mischievous and will not take or knowingly administer any harmful drugs.

I will do all in my power to maintain and elevate the standard of my profession and will hold in confidence all personal matters committed to my keeping and all family affairs coming to my knowledge in the practice of my calling.

With loyalty will I endeavour to aid the physician in his work and devote myself to the welfare of those committed to my care.

Monday, November 22, 2004

R.O.M

Criteria For Him:
1) Way of proposal should be Romantic, Sincere and Unique
2) Things that are a must are Roses and Topaz Ring
3) Both our parents must be agreeable with the relationship
4) He must prove himself to be Responsible, Caring, Commited, Loving, able to provide a sense of Security, Patient with my nonsense and lastly able to treat me well...


Not so difficult, eh?

Thursday, November 18, 2004

Joanne

I was aborted in 1991 via the MTPT (mid trimester pregnancy termination) method. It was horrid as my precious life was taken away from me by a prostaglandin. I struggled hard against it but in the end I lost the 'battle'...

It began when my mummy concieved me in her first 12 days of gestation and she drank alcohol on purpose with the intention to cause herself a miscarriage. It didn't work...

During my mummy's ultrasound scan in the 15th week of gestation it showed that I had acrania and would not be able to survive even when I was born. (It was all mummy's fault! Had she not drank alcohol, I wouldn't had this condition. It was her fault that even if I was born into this world, I wouldn't be viable. ) Mummy's gynaecologist advised her to terminate the pregnancy due to my condition. Mummy agreed.

After my life ended, I became a wandering soul and joined my 'friends' who were also aborted. We could not go to heaven. We had to wait for our mummies to bring us there. We became lonely and depressed knowing that we were deprived of the chance to experience the human world. The hate and rejection from our mummies hurt as even more... We cried for our mummies, we desperately yearn to experience the joys of having a family.

I decided to 'haunt' my mummy and make her write a book on me. I want the world to know that I could have a chance to led a normal human life if my mummy didn't drink that alcohol. I want the world to know that abortion hurts the baby too... I want the world to realise that even unborn babies have feelings and have the right to live.

I wish in my next life, I wouldn't be aborted again. I want to experience the life stages from womb to tomb...





Book Title: To Joanne With Love
Author: Margaret Soon

Discrimination

Please strip away the veil,
Look behind the mask,
For you see my face,
As it pleases you.

See my beauty not your face,
Look upon my joys and not despair,
For I am no beast but human,
And I truly wish to be no burden.

Can't you see I strive to be just like you?
Grant me some happiness,
Between my madness,
(for that is not me)
Give me hope that I may succeed.

Look at our hearts,
I have eyes,
Can't you see that I am like you,
And like me...



Robert S. Allan

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

In Memories Of I_ _ N (friends close to me would noe who this person is)

We started off innocently. Both of us first time in love or perhaps for you, it wasn't what you would call love... But for me, it was my first time experiencing being in a relationship.

We were 14 then. We still very young and were in supposed to be studying hard instead. We were in the same class and you were sitting diagnonally from me. We both enjoyed Literature and hated Mandarin classes.

We were a couple on 3 Feb 1997 but broke off on 24 March 1997.

I know it has been so long and I shouldn't be harping on it already. But what am I supposed to do? Forget whatever we had and pretend that it never happened? It is impossible! You were the first guy I ever trusted and loved.

You almost hit Chong Boon just because of a lame joke he made which offended me. You even crooned 'I Swear' to me when you were at my house before school started. We even chose to walk home after school instead of taking the bus just to spend more time together. You carried my file and held my hand. Just a peck on your cheeks from me made you turned very red. You gave me a gold-plated necklace with a dove pendant on Valentines' Day. I simply was thrilled. I was almost touched to tears...

There was once we missed the school excursion bus and ended up going to Sunplaza Park. You made me a ring from a steel wire. We had so much fun!

All these probably meant nothing to you. But it means a lot to me. I have held these events so dearly in my memories... You have most likely forgot all about it. I still do remember...

You broke off with me without telling me a reason. It was the Monday after the March school holidays, during recess at the school library. I was sure hell angry at you and hated you to the core. From that moment, I promised myself to spite you back for jilting me. I really hated you lots! However, you never cared... You didn't even feel sorry for breaking off with me.

One year later, you transferred out the school to another school nearer to your home. I acted coolly to the news. But deep down inside my heart, I was upset and knew that I would missed you.

Anyway, all these had happened so long ago, I finally fell deeply in love with another guy 3 years after we broke off.

Now, you and I are different individuals with different characters and different worlds of our own. I waited for you... I was foolish enough to think that you would come back into my life. I finally woke up from my naive dreams.

I deceived the world that I was happy flirting around and changing boyfriends like changing clothes. Deep down, I was hurting and self-destructing... Things are different now... I am letting all these yearning for you go... I am gonna start a brand new life... However, I won't forget you and all the sweet things that happened 7 years ago.

I am foolish right?! What to do? First love and first cut would be always be the deepest...


Juz 4 Jeff

It was Friday (26-05-2000), Jeff was rushing to meet a girl whom he never seen before... He was running late. He promised to meet this girl at Tampines MRT at 7pm for dinner to pass her a book. The time was 7.15pm.

His pager beeped. Jeff took out his handphone and decided to call back.

Jeff: "I've reached. I am sorry that I am late. Where are you?"

Girl: " It is okie. I am outside Guardian. How do I recognize you?"

Jeff: " I am wearing Black shirt and a White jeans. Carrying a big, thick, big book. You?"

Girl: " I am in White Espirit shirt and Blue jeans."

Jeff's eyes darted around and walked towards Guardian Pharmacy. He spotted the girl he was supposed to be meeting... As he introduced himself to the girl, he was still panting for breath as he had ran from the bus stop to the MRT station. Unknown to him, the girl was trying hard not to laugh at his messy hair and beads of sweat that was running down his forehead.

"Let's go to Century Square for dinner. We can dine in at Sushi Tei. I have two friends who works there." offered the girl.

"Okie." said Jeff. " By the way, this is the book you've asked for..." Even before he had ended his sentence, the girl had already 'snatched' the book from his hand and was flipping it while walking.

The dinner was awkard one as Jeff tried to impressed the girl with his knowledge of Nursing and the girl was too shy to answer much. The more Jeff tried harder to maintain his composure, the more clumsy he became, dropping his pager and spectacles from his shirt pocket. The girl just laughed at his clumsiness.

After dinner, he was introduced to the girl's friends, ShuZhen and KaiJia, who worked at the restaurant...

At around 10pm, the girl said that she had to go home leaving him to continue interacting with ShuZhen and KaiJia...

Jeff: "Can you meet again tomorrow?"

Girl: "No... I am sorry, I am not free."

Jeff: " How about Sunday?"

Girl: "Err.. no... I am usually not free on weekends as I have to meet my boyfriend who is in the army."

Jeff: "Then when I can meet you again?"

Girl: " I will call you."

Jeff's heart sunk... He was not sure when he would be able to meet this girl again... He was upset that this girl had a boyfriend. He was starting to have a crush on this girl...

Two weeks had passed... The girl had not called him. Finally, he couldn't bear it anymore. He decided to call this girl.

Jeff: "Hi."

Girl: "Hi..."

Jeff: "Remember me?"

Girl: "Yeah."

Jeff: "How have you been?"

Girl: "I broke off with my boyfriend."

Jeff:"Oh... I am sorry."

Girl:" Nevermind. It is okie."

Jeff: "Wanna meet?"

Girl: "Erm.. no... I wanna watch Romeo and Juliet tonight at 7pm."

Jeff: "Tomorrow?"

Girl: "Can... Your book... I have not finished with it."

Jeff: "It is okie... No hurry... You can pass it back to me some other day when you are done with it. So where do we meet? I am free after my attachment at SGH. That would be at 4pm."

Girl: "Okie... See you at SGH tomorrow. 4pm outside the foodcourt."

Jeff: "Okie... See you."

Girl: "See you. Gotta go. Bye."

As Jeff hung up the phone, he was ecstatic... He decided to use the opportunity tomorrow to tell this girl about his feelings for her.

The next day, he met the girl at SGH and went out for dinner. The whole meeting, Jeff tried to find the right time to let the girl know about how he felt about her. But he didn't get the chance. Words just could not come out from his mouth...

Back at home, Jeff decided that he had to get it off his chest a.s.a.p and now delay anymore furthur. He called the girl on her handphone...

Jeff: "Hi, Jeff here."

Girl: "Yup. I know. Caller-ID."

Jeff: "Er... I have something to tell you, hope that you wouldn't get shocked."

Girl: "What?"

Jeff: "Er... Nevermind."

Girl: " Say it. What is it?"

Jeff: " Nevermind, forget it."

Girl: "Just say it."

Jeff: "I like you."

Girl: (speechless)

Jeff: "Erm... nevermind... Take it as I never said it."

After a long pause...

Girl: "Me too. That's why I broke off with my boyfriend."

Jeff: "Really?"

Girl: (nodded her head) "Yeah."

Jeff: "Er... then would you be my girlfriend?"

Girl: "Not now. Let me consider it first. I wanna clear out my mind before I enter into another relationship. I dun want to rush into another relationship not knowing if is love or just another crush."

Jeff: (in softer voice) "Okie."

Girl: "Give me some time to think about it."

Jeff: "Sure. I would be patiently waiting for the answer from you."

Girl: "Thanks."

Jeff: "Bye."

Girl: "Bye."

On 10 May 2000, Jeff recieved a call from the girl...

Girl: "The answer is YES."

Jeff: "wo yi ding hui rang ni bi wo xing fu. wo bu hui rang ni hou hui xuan ze wo."

Girl: "Ok. Make sure you keep your promise."