Sunday, July 31, 2005

I Want...

Recently, I spotted a very nice wedding band. It is from Soo Kee Jewellery. It is called the Infinity Brilliant Rose Wedding Band, Model Number: IW 024B... It is very nice and I simply love it.

But too bad, it wouldn't be my wedding band although I really like it, 'cause my wedding band can't have diamonds on it. My working condition does not permit me to wear diamond wedding band (even if they allow, I also can't bear to wear it)... I am afraid my ring will get scratched the the diamond would eventually drop out. By then, I will really be heart-ache if the diamond drops out and get lost somewhere...

The price is S$1138 for the one that I like (female version) and S$698 for the male version. However, my dear is keen on buying it. But I don't want him to waste money! I rather that he uses the money to buy the proper wedding band and one that I can wear 24/7.

*sigh* BUT I REALLY LIKE THE RING....

The website to view the ring:
http://www.sookee.com.sg/icatalogue/catalogue.aspx?cat=0507&pg=5&maxpg=16

http://www.sookee.com.sg/news/?indexno=8

Friday, July 29, 2005

Young and Sweet Me... Those days are long gone...

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Feel So Sick...

I am feel so sick for the past few days already. Taken Vitamin C and everything I could to prevent this outbreak of flu but yet it stills come back to me. Feel myself very susceptible to getting flu and tonsillitis.
I still went to work today despite all the body weakness and nauseous feeling. I know the total number of patients are building up and if I take MC, there would be a big problem finding for a SN to take over my work. Just as I guessed, the SN from Ward 12 took MC and I don't blame her. My whole ward has been known to have quite a high number of MCs because all the SNs are suffering from 'burn-out'...
Anyway, there I was trying my best to complete my work, being as efficient as I could to prioritize my work and settling what I need to settle... However, my NM was nagging, patients were pressing the call-bell (esp that stupid RM2 asking for Salon-Pas and being a nuisance), one patients trying to abscond from the ward, one more pestering me to discharge him A.S.A.P because he has another appointment at a private clinic and last but not least one patient constantly asking for his walking-stick when he doesn't even need it urgently.
Can you believe it? I was serving my medications of 19 patients from 7.45am to 9am. Then, I was busy dealing with the I/V medications until around 10am while attending to some nuisance call bells. Then, I was following a patient who is kind of 'conked up' there in his brains who kept insisting of going home without waiting for his daughter who was going to come at 1pm to bring him home. He kept saying he has lost his way to going back to Serangoon and wanted to look for a taxi stand. He even pooped in his pants and refused to have bath or change into a clean clothes. Not to forget, a patient who is a scientist... He wanted to A.O.R (discharge against doctor's advice) and wanted to go to the private clinic for a follow up immediately. My goodness, how chaotic!!!!!
By 12pm, then was I doing all the changes for all the patients, attempting to get some peace and quiet but there has to be endless phone calls, hypocount to be taken, discharging of that conked up patients (yes, finally the daughter came to bring him home), 19 reports to be written and patients' relatives to entertain their multiple enquries of condition of patients.
By 1.30pm, still struggling with report writing...
2pm, passing of unfinished report and 3 out of 14 wound dressing to do (BIG thanks to my juniors, they did a few for me while sponging patients :)...)
Finally, at 4pm I finished my stuff and left the ward!!!

Now at 6pm, I am feeling so tired and more sick... Coughing away, vomited twice because I skipped breakfast and lunch... Sneezing away... Think it is about time I take MC at the expense of other tomorrow. Ought to be selfish... I have already struggled through today and I need plenty of rest. So sianz... Imagine 1 Staff Nurse solely in charge of 19 patients!!!! Thank God I had 2 juniors to help me out, otherwise I will really 'pengz' today.

Can't imagine that I managed to cope today...


Btw:
SN- Staff Nurse
NM- Nurse Manager

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Love Story

From the very beginning, gal's family objected strongly on her dating this guy, saying that it has got to do with family background, & that the gal will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him. Due to family's pressure, the couple quarreled very often. Though the gal love the guy deeply, she always asked him: "How deep is your love for me?"

As the guy is not good with his words, this often caused the gal to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the gal often vented her anger on him. As for him, he only endured it in silence.

After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the gal: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?" The gal agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he left, they got engaged.

The gal went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up. One day, while the gal was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice....

The doctors said that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides crying, it's just her silent cry that accompanied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced her heart every thing it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer. With that, she sent the engagement ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of replies, countless phone-calls, all the gal could do was to cry silently.

The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy. With a new environment, the gal learned sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy.

One day, her friend came & told her that her boyfriend is back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't any news of him.

A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope containing an invitation for the guy's wedding. The gal was shattered. When she opened the card, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise, let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You." With that, he slipped the engagement ring back into her finger. The gal finally smiled.


Moral of the story: *Treat every relationship as if it's the last one, then you'll know how to give... Treat every moment as is if it's the last day, then you'll know how to treasure*

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Is Being Fat A Sin?

Just had an argument with my parents regarding their constant comments and actions saying that I am fat and overweight...
Okie, yes, I admit, I am fat, ugly, overweight and very much chubby! But so what? Does that make me any less human? Does it really matter with their own flesh and blood is fat or not? Is it really that important that I am overweight? Will their lose a piece of their flesh knowing that their daughter is overweight?
I had about enough comments from my parents and relatives giving their opinions on how chubby I am, how to lose weight effectively, not to eat so much and especially my parents restricting me on the food I should eat and what I should not.
They remove all the meat and gives me only vegetables thinking that it would help me with weight loss. They even tells my fiance not to give me the chicken broth as it is fattening. How demoralizing can that get?
Then, when I get hospitalized due to certain issues, they blame it on my weight when overweight has nothing in relation to the reason why I was hospitalized. Reasons for hospitalization: nausea and vomiting, ovarian cyst, constant headache and loss of consciousness. I doubt any of the above diagnosis is related to being overweight!
They always think that being slim is pretty and healthy but have they ever wondered what if one day I get knocked down my a car due to lack of nutrition therefore leading to lose of concentration. Then, when I lose the ability to swallow solid food, gets in a coma, depends on some kind of respirator just to maintain my life. Sure, I would slim down in no time but hopefully by then they won't regret for saying I am fat and wish for me to slim down...
Which girl doesn't want to be pretty? Which girl likes to be chubby and overweight? Which girl enjoys comments daily saying she is fat and needs to cut down on her food intake? Which girl loves to be looking into the mirror and see a chubby image of herself reflecting back at her? Which girl savors the joy of being gawked at by her parents and relatives?

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Invite Or Not To Invite

It seems like a ridiculous question to be asking myself from time to time, but I just can't thinking of this question and pondering of the possibilities of inviting or not inviting 'HIM' to my post R.O.M celebrations... I shan't say who this person is... Let just name him "HIM".

My fiance does not seem to object violently to the idea of inviting him, although he did voice out a bit of unhappiness with the idea of 'HIM' at the R.O.M celebrations. I even asked 'HIM' before if he would be comfortable being at my R.O.M celebrations and he never did want to answer the question... (Very typical of him!)

Anyway, here are the rationale that makes me a bit in a dilemma over to invite 'HIM' or not invite him...
If I invite 'HIM', I worry that he might feel a bit odd or uncomfortable with seeing me getting hitched. He might feel I am being spiteful when I don't mean it. But yet, if I don't invite him, I worry that he might one day ask why didn't I invite him to the celebrations and I won't know how to answer 'HIM'. I mean if I were 'HIM' I would feel a bit weird and uneasy being at a person's R.O.M celebration knowing that we had a past and things didn't work out as we would have expected it to. However, I would still attend it as I regard 'HIM' as a friend now and I know I should be more mature than to let such small matters bother me.
(Hey, don't be mistaken that I still harbor feelings for him... I dun!) But I am just wondering if it is mutual that we just treat each other as just close friends and won't harbor any jealous thoughts or any unhappy thoughts and just be like normal friends feeling glad for each other that we do have a better life now and are happy doing what we do. I mean, I would be happy for 'HIM' if he had found the woman of his life and decided to commit the rest of his life with her. But, does he think the same way too? I don't know...

Thursday, July 14, 2005

So Much In Love

This is the song my fiance is trying to 'master' as he says he want to sing it at our R.O.M... We will see how it turns out!!! (lolx)

as we stroll along together
holding hands walking all along
so in love are we two
that we don't know what to do
so in love (do so in love)
in a world of our own (do so in love)
as we walk by the sea together
under stars twinkling high above
so in love are we two
no one else but me and you
so in love (do so in love)
so much in love (do so in love)
so in love (do so in love)
so much in love (do so in love)
we stroll along together
i tell you, i need you oh so much
i love, i love you my darling
can you tell it in my touch
as we walk down the aisle together
we will vow to be together till we die
so in love are we two
just can't wait to say i do
so in love (do so in love)
in a world of our own (do so in love)
so in love(do so in love)
are you and i (do so in love)
baby, i hope you realize
that you mean so much to me
you're everything i ever wanted in a woman
to touch, to feel your body close to me
and i just want to hold you in my arms forever
can you (i love you baby) tell it in my touch
as we walk down the aisle together
we will vow to be together till we die
so in love are we two
are we two just can't wait to say i do
so in love (do so in love)
are you and i (do so in love)
so in love (do so in love)
are you and i (do so in love)
(do so in love) so in love
(do so in love) so in love
(do so in love) so in love
(do so in love) so in love

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Cadbury Chocolate Advertisement

Those Cadbury commercials are cute, especially the one where the surfer shook his little chocolate buttocks at the shark.

Surfer:
Wouldn’t it be nice if the world was Cadbury
You could surf inside a chocolate tube
Ride your board across the wave forever
Get wiped out and never get a bruise.
And if a shark came up and tried to bite you
You could say “I’m chocolate I invite you”
Wouldn’t it be nice!

They actually have a total of 4 commercials altogether. Well, wouldn’t it be nice indeed, especially for the chocoholics. Maybe, with all the sugary sweetness, the world could be a better place if the world was chocolate, Cadbury chocolate that is.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

10 Mths To R.O.M

10months more before my R.O.M...

*Sigh* He doesn't seem eager nor like nervous about it, while I am always keeping a look-out for nice gowns, rings, caterers and venues to hold the post-R.O.M celebration for close friends and relatives.

Maybe he ain't interested 'cause he hasn't found a job yet...
Maybe he ain't interested 'cause he thinks 10months is still a long time away...
Maybe he ain't interested 'cause he is unromantic...
Maybe he ain't interetsed 'cause he is simply can't be bothered...

:(

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

A Song...

FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE
I finally found someone
That knocks me off my feet
I finally found the one
That makes me feel complete

It started over coffee
We started out as friends
It's funny how from simple things
The best things begin

This time is different
And it's all because of you
It's better than it's ever been
'Cause we can talk it through
My favourite line was "Can I call you sometime"
It's all you had to say
To take my breath away

This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone

Did I keep you waiting?
I didn't mind
I apologise, baby that's fine
I would wait forever just to know you were mine
You know I love your hair
Are you sure it looks right?
I love what you wear
Isn't it too tight?

You're exceptional I can't wait for the rest of my life
This is it, oh I finally found someone
Someone to share my life
I finally found the one
To be with every night
'Cause whatever I do
It's just got to be you

My life has just begun
I finally found someone
And whatever I do
It's just got to be you
My life has just begun
I finally found someone


PS: I guess only I would know what this song would remind me of... Long long time ago, a heartbreak. The person who broke my heart doesn't know he did it. He is nonchalant about it anyway, so why bother even letting him know... *Sigh*
I am just glad that I FINALLY FOUND SOMEONE who would treasure me, my feelings, my heart and lastly, cherish every moment I spent and am going spend with him. 10 May 2006, that would be the day I would make a vow be his 'xiao bit' 4ever...

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Weird!

I bumped into someone yesterday... Wouldn't want to say who but I wanna make it clear that it wasn't someone special, just a friend,(a close friend maybe.)
His actions... his reaction... his gestures just seem to not make any sense to me.
Q1) Why was it when I was thinking of him and wondering how to reaction if I bumped into him, he just appeared right in front of me?
Q2) How can things be so coincidental?
Q3) Why did he seemed surprised yet shy to have met me?
Q4) Why did he look embarrassed why I teased about the girl beside him but yet he denies that she is his girlfriend?
Q5) Why did he seem to 'back off' when I told that I was with my fiance?

The funny part of the whole thing was if that girl beside him wasn't his girlfriend then he could have just denied it flat, why the facial expression of uneasiness? Plus, why did he have to try to back off when I told him that I wasn't alone and was with my fiance? It is not that the both of them have not met before. It is not that he didn't know that I was attached?