I modified the song 'UNTITLED' by Simple Plan with my own version on how I feel recently...
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded
By the white lies
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm sitting here tonight
And I can't stand the heartache
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me?
They made their mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm my feelings are fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
But no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto
A time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that they have done
No I can't
How could this happen to me?
They made their mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
They have made their mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Weird Humans
8 years ago, when I 14 years old and still a new girl of TPSS, I was being slapped 3 times by a bunch of Ah Lians due to a staring incident. Sounds kind of childish, but I was accused of staring at one of the Lians and they wanted me to 'pay back' for my action. I remember it was Valentines' Day somemore. Hee hee...
8 years later, recently by some coincidence, I managed to find the contacts of one of those girls and she seems very much changed. She looks and seems more mature and have out-grown the Ah Lian behaviour. She is also getting married this coming 11 Sept 2005.
After much thoughts, I decided to be-friend and put the past all behind (anyway, I have already forgiven her long ago). However, the most ironic part is that she is avoiding me totally. Left her a message on Friendster, no reply. Left her a message on MSN, also no reply and instead she immediately logged off. So weird... Not sure if she is avoiding me out of guilt or hatred...
If it is out of guilt, then I think she should know that I have already forgave her and sincerely want to be-friend her if it is possible.
If it is out of hatred, then I guess I might have just over-estimated her maturity level. I mean, shouldn't I be the one who hates her more since she was the one who slapped me and was violent with me over such a trivia matter??
Anyway, that has already happened so long ago and those bunch of girls got their suspension and detention as punishment from the discipline master. Besides, we have all grown up now as well as are now leading our own lives. Thus, I don't see why we can't be platonic friends. I also don't mean any harm.
Weird human beings on earth, don't you agree??
8 years later, recently by some coincidence, I managed to find the contacts of one of those girls and she seems very much changed. She looks and seems more mature and have out-grown the Ah Lian behaviour. She is also getting married this coming 11 Sept 2005.
After much thoughts, I decided to be-friend and put the past all behind (anyway, I have already forgiven her long ago). However, the most ironic part is that she is avoiding me totally. Left her a message on Friendster, no reply. Left her a message on MSN, also no reply and instead she immediately logged off. So weird... Not sure if she is avoiding me out of guilt or hatred...
If it is out of guilt, then I think she should know that I have already forgave her and sincerely want to be-friend her if it is possible.
If it is out of hatred, then I guess I might have just over-estimated her maturity level. I mean, shouldn't I be the one who hates her more since she was the one who slapped me and was violent with me over such a trivia matter??
Anyway, that has already happened so long ago and those bunch of girls got their suspension and detention as punishment from the discipline master. Besides, we have all grown up now as well as are now leading our own lives. Thus, I don't see why we can't be platonic friends. I also don't mean any harm.
Weird human beings on earth, don't you agree??
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
New Hair Cut
I just cut my 'tail' and my fringe yesterday. As you can see my new hairstyle is kind of weird. Hee hee, I am still not very used to it.
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Finally Off Night Duty...
Finally... I am resting after 3 continuous days of night shift. Hurray, I have 'earned' myself 3 days of rest too. So I would be only back to work on Wednesday.
Spent the first half of the day sleeping from 9am to 2pm. Then, waited for Dear to come back home after his volunteering befriender stuff with Randy. At around 5pm, we went to Simei to collect my Topaz ring. It is such a pity that I didn't manage to capture a good picture of it, otherwise, I would have uploaded it here. Anyway, it is very nice. Kind of cheap and looks good on my fingers. (By the way, please don't misunderstand that it is my engagement ring, 'cause it is not! He has yet to even done his 'homework' on where and what design to get me. That unromantic fellow!) In the evening, we took a walk to Dear's aunt's place to see her newly bought guinea pig. The guinea pig is very cute and it loves to hide out in dark place. It also makes funny noises when you are stroking its body. I simply fancy all small animals!!! From Chinchillas to Rabbits to Hamsters to Guinea Pigs to Kittens to Puppies... except Mice.
Oh yeah, almost forgot to congratulate someone... Yeah, congrats to Shuzhen and Simon! They had found and bought their wedding bands today from Bugis Junction (Lee Hwa). It is also from the Kizoku series but of a different design from the ones Dear and me wants.
Spent the first half of the day sleeping from 9am to 2pm. Then, waited for Dear to come back home after his volunteering befriender stuff with Randy. At around 5pm, we went to Simei to collect my Topaz ring. It is such a pity that I didn't manage to capture a good picture of it, otherwise, I would have uploaded it here. Anyway, it is very nice. Kind of cheap and looks good on my fingers. (By the way, please don't misunderstand that it is my engagement ring, 'cause it is not! He has yet to even done his 'homework' on where and what design to get me. That unromantic fellow!) In the evening, we took a walk to Dear's aunt's place to see her newly bought guinea pig. The guinea pig is very cute and it loves to hide out in dark place. It also makes funny noises when you are stroking its body. I simply fancy all small animals!!! From Chinchillas to Rabbits to Hamsters to Guinea Pigs to Kittens to Puppies... except Mice.
Oh yeah, almost forgot to congratulate someone... Yeah, congrats to Shuzhen and Simon! They had found and bought their wedding bands today from Bugis Junction (Lee Hwa). It is also from the Kizoku series but of a different design from the ones Dear and me wants.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Lee Hwa Wedding Band
Today, I went out with my friend, Shuzhen, in search of her wedding band. She is one lucky woman who has a very nice and caring fiance. They are going to R.O.M this coming December... Xing Fu Nu Ren...
Anyway, we walked Tampines area and Bugis Junction all afternoon until 8pm. She has found a few designs that she really likes from Soo Kee, Lee Hwa and Tian Poh. I also shopped around with her doing my own survey and guess what?! I decided that the wedding band me and Dear saw at Lee Hwa is still the best for me and him. It is simple yet elegant and the most importantly, it suits our fingers pretty well.
Shuzhen also found the R.O.M dress at Bugis Junction. Therefore, this weekend, she is going to drag her fiance to buy the wedding bands and the dress. Expenses fully paid by him. So sweet of him, right? Keke...
Another thing, I decided that my dear is not yet my fiance, 'cause I am still waiting for his Topaz engagement ring. That means, I am still free and not even engaged at the moment. Lolz, that also means still free to look around for better guys!!! (Just kidding!)
Okie, the ring that me and dear like from Lee Hwa is the one in the picture above. Happy viewing and feel free to give me any comments.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Male Or Female, U Decide...
Choice of a baby BOY or GIRL
Hope it is useful for some of you in planning stage. For those of you do not have any plan in the near future, you can keep it for future reference.
Background:
Man's sperm consists of X & Y spermatozoa, X spermatozoon decides the female whereas Y is the male. Referring to these physiological properties of the spermatozoa, gynecologists set up the theory of 'Choice of a girl or a boy'.
1st factor: Food
If you want a baby girl: Husband must eat more alkaline food, wife eats more acidic food.
If you want a baby boy: Husband eats more acidic food, wife eats more alkaline food.
Alkaline food: vegetables, fruits, egg white, milk, algae, etc.
Acidic food: meat, seafood, etc.
2nd factor: Timing (When to do it?)
If you want a baby girl: Frequent copulation during pre-ovulation period.
If you want a baby boy: Copulating just before ovulation or just after ovulation.
How to confirm ovulation period: Body temperature increases (you may want to use SPC chart to monitor your body temperature here).
3rd factor: Penetration (How to do it?)
If you want a baby girl: Husband to avoid deep penetration in the female vagina during copulation.
If you want a baby boy: Deep penetration by the husband is suggested.
Reasoning: Characteristics of X & Y spermatozoa
X: Marathon runner with good stamina
Y: Sprinter but poor stamina
So, with deep penetration, the chances for Y to reach destination will be higher.
4th factor: Stimulation
If you want a baby girl: Wife should avoid stimulation during copulation. Secretion from female vagina becomes alkaline when stimulated, therefore this promotes the activity of Y spermatozoon.
If you want a baby boy: Husband ejaculates after wife has been stimulated.
5th factor: Wife's Preparation
If you want a baby girl: Rinse the vagina with solution dissolving 2 spoonfuls of white vinegar in 1 liter of water. Since an acidic condition decreases activity of Y spermatozoon.
If you want a baby boy: Rinse the vagina with solution dissolving 2 spoonfuls of soda in 1 liter of water.
6th factor: Positioning
If you want a baby girl: Female to be on the top position & male to be on the bottom position.
If you want a baby boy: Male to be on the top position & female to be on the bottom position. This posture allows the Y spermatozoon to reach the destination faster.
Hope it is useful for some of you in planning stage. For those of you do not have any plan in the near future, you can keep it for future reference.
Background:
Man's sperm consists of X & Y spermatozoa, X spermatozoon decides the female whereas Y is the male. Referring to these physiological properties of the spermatozoa, gynecologists set up the theory of 'Choice of a girl or a boy'.
1st factor: Food
If you want a baby girl: Husband must eat more alkaline food, wife eats more acidic food.
If you want a baby boy: Husband eats more acidic food, wife eats more alkaline food.
Alkaline food: vegetables, fruits, egg white, milk, algae, etc.
Acidic food: meat, seafood, etc.
2nd factor: Timing (When to do it?)
If you want a baby girl: Frequent copulation during pre-ovulation period.
If you want a baby boy: Copulating just before ovulation or just after ovulation.
How to confirm ovulation period: Body temperature increases (you may want to use SPC chart to monitor your body temperature here).
3rd factor: Penetration (How to do it?)
If you want a baby girl: Husband to avoid deep penetration in the female vagina during copulation.
If you want a baby boy: Deep penetration by the husband is suggested.
Reasoning: Characteristics of X & Y spermatozoa
X: Marathon runner with good stamina
Y: Sprinter but poor stamina
So, with deep penetration, the chances for Y to reach destination will be higher.
4th factor: Stimulation
If you want a baby girl: Wife should avoid stimulation during copulation. Secretion from female vagina becomes alkaline when stimulated, therefore this promotes the activity of Y spermatozoon.
If you want a baby boy: Husband ejaculates after wife has been stimulated.
5th factor: Wife's Preparation
If you want a baby girl: Rinse the vagina with solution dissolving 2 spoonfuls of white vinegar in 1 liter of water. Since an acidic condition decreases activity of Y spermatozoon.
If you want a baby boy: Rinse the vagina with solution dissolving 2 spoonfuls of soda in 1 liter of water.
6th factor: Positioning
If you want a baby girl: Female to be on the top position & male to be on the bottom position.
If you want a baby boy: Male to be on the top position & female to be on the bottom position. This posture allows the Y spermatozoon to reach the destination faster.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Countdown to R.O.M
Hurray! 9 months more before I gain a 'MRS' status in my life. Haha, sounds kind like I am desperate, right? Guess so. I am really looking forward to that day although nothing has been prepared yet. Still searching around for the best gown, wedding bands, buffet deals, etc...
Saturday, August 06, 2005
Difficult Times...
Been going through a bit of setbacks and problems these few days. I managed to bottle up all my depressive moods and only a few close people knows what I am going through.
It is kind of painful that something like that should happen to me. Anyway, I expected it to happen one day, sooner or later since it was a problem since I was much younger, even before I lose my innocence to secondary school years. Well, I am a female also, so it would also happen when I get hitched or married. But, somehow, I am having mixed feeling about it. Some part of me feels sad and depressed that it happened so soon, some part of me feels happy that I managed to regain full control of my life for once in my life, some part of me also having that sort of like I am missing a piece of puzzle in my life. Lastly, a part me is enjoying the romance and everything between me and my dear.
However, I guess through this ordeal, if I managed to 'survive' out of it, I would a better off as a person and at least, I can see what the true love of my dear. I also managed to see the true colors of people around me and how I am being treated my his mum. Thank God, I have something good to fall back on. Things could have been worse if I didn't have any backup plans and or anything to fall back on...
I got to learn to cheer up, just take things step by step and plan my future for the best of myself and my dear...
It is kind of painful that something like that should happen to me. Anyway, I expected it to happen one day, sooner or later since it was a problem since I was much younger, even before I lose my innocence to secondary school years. Well, I am a female also, so it would also happen when I get hitched or married. But, somehow, I am having mixed feeling about it. Some part of me feels sad and depressed that it happened so soon, some part of me feels happy that I managed to regain full control of my life for once in my life, some part of me also having that sort of like I am missing a piece of puzzle in my life. Lastly, a part me is enjoying the romance and everything between me and my dear.
However, I guess through this ordeal, if I managed to 'survive' out of it, I would a better off as a person and at least, I can see what the true love of my dear. I also managed to see the true colors of people around me and how I am being treated my his mum. Thank God, I have something good to fall back on. Things could have been worse if I didn't have any backup plans and or anything to fall back on...
I got to learn to cheer up, just take things step by step and plan my future for the best of myself and my dear...
Monday, August 01, 2005
K- Box
I went shopping around Tampines Mall today looking at wedding bands with my dear... (Yes!) I went to see the Infinity wedding band from Soo Kee, the one that I have desired and longed for. I even managed to hold it and 'inspect' it closely hoping to find a flaw in it but NO, it is so perfect, so beautiful, so gorgeous, so elegant and just so nice!!!!
Anyway, we chanced upon one pair of wedding band at Lee Hwa and it is also not bad. More realistic. Cost about $588 each. Decided to put it into our 'Consideration List'.
After shopping around, we ended up in K-box and sung to our heart's content.
However, my mind is still lingering on the Infinity wedding band. It is just my kind of wedding band. The one I have been wanting and so princess-like. Even my dear thinks I am crazy about. Hmmz, anyway, I know it wouldn't belong to me... Too expensive, too unrealistic and I know he wouldn't spend that kind of bucks just to buy me the ring... (Stop day-dreaming but I can't help it)
*Dreaming away in a daze*
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