Happy New Year

Guess this would be last post of the year. Not very looking forward to 2007 as I know it would be just another boring year. Thus, only hoping that it would go by faster and 2008 would arrive soon.
Sharon said she would like to meet me on 3rd January when I go back to work as I have taken MC today. I am really unsatisfied that I would need to see her just because I am on a day MC. Other of my colleagues can take up to one week of MC and still pass her probation. I am only entitled to 2 days of weekend off after 3 months of service while another new-comer has 3 days of weekend off just after 2 months of service. How unfair! Just because I am her preceptee, I have to be 'bullied' and live up to her high expectations.
Guess our preceptor and preceptee relationship would be soured and more likely I won't pass my probation and get confirmed. Really don't understand why I always kanna such un-reasonable and mean supervisor... So depressing...

Now for my resolutions:
1) Improve my married life and relationship with Baku
2) Start planning for 10 May 2008
3) Hopefully able to maintain in Northern Hope even though the loopholes are beginning to surface.
4) May have to start controlling my temper as Baku says my temper is getting bad to worst

Life Of A NIC

This week, I am finally taking on the role of the NIC (nurse in-charge). So far so good but lots of my colleagues have been taking MCs and that has somehow affected the work load. The work load is also heavier than usual as it is the end of the year, thus, many people have been trying to their annual health screenings done.
I am also 2 weeks from my confirmation. Kind of not sure if I would be confirmed or not. I feel that I still have a lot to learn and I am unsure if I have fulfilled Sharon's standard or not since she had once told me that she has higher expectation of me as I am her preceptee...
I suffer from low self-esteem...

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas Peeps!
Just a simple update, Baku had just bought a VCD series called 'Xiao Yu Er Yu Hua Wu Que'. It is the same show that is shown at 7pm on weekends. It is very touching, all talking about true love, courage and kinship. Almost cried a few times...
I have also been unwell for the past few days vomitting and had gastric problems...

Latest update: I have completed the VCD series within 2 days with sleeping for 8hrs in total of these 2 days. Hurray! Another accomplishment of another VCD series completed aside from 'Huan Zhu Ge Ge'. That was like 2 or 3 years back bah... Muahahahaha...

Nail Infection

My last fingernail had been almost 'detached' from my nail bed due to my rough-ness in behaviour. Luckily, the doctor said that there is nothing serious and just asked me to be careful in the mean-time.
Anyway, had our company's christmas buffet dinner at Sakura located at Downtown East. Pretty nice with a wide spread of food items, ranging from Japanese style to raw seafood, from Chinese Boiled Soups to Shark's Fin. Yummy. Ate to my heart's content and not to forget the Ben's and Jerry peppermint ice-cream... MMMM....
Working from 0930hrs to 11oohrs tomorrow. Yes, special... Haha...

Sweet Lyrics

Tu Amor

Mi amor
I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you now
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here's the place to start
Tu amor, I will always be
Tu amor, means the world to me
Estarás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor
Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I'll feel for all time
How to make you see
How to let you now I need you
With words you understand
Words that get through to your soul
Words that will let you now
You're the one that I need in my arms
Believe me these words
I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me



Music Video:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FurDjsCzn0w

Xmas Nail Colour

My new manicure colour. Haha.. after 2 months I am still keeping my acyrlic nails...

The manicurist says the colour I am using are their latest Christmas colours. LOL!

My cousin getting ROM on Wednesday, not sure if I am invited. Maybe not as I am not on very good or close terms with her anyway.

What The Bible Teaches About Marriages

1 Peter 3:1-5, 7
In the same way, you wives must accept the authority of your husbands, even those who refuse to accept the Good News. Your godly lives will speak to them better than any words. They will be won over by watching your pure, godly behavior.
Don't be concerned about the outward beauty ... You should be known for the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God ... In the same way, you husbands must give honor to your wives. Treat her with understanding as you live together. She may be weaker than you are, but she is your equal partner in God's eyes.

Gen. 2:18, 21-24
The Lord God said, 'It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him'...and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh.
Then the Lord God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. The man said, 'This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman,' for she was taken out of man.' For this reason a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and they will become one flesh.

Therefore, marriage was designed for companionship and intimacy.

Eph. 5:23-32
For a husband is the head of his wife as Christ is the head of his body, the church; he gave his life to be her Savior. As the church submits to Christ, so you wives must submit to your husbands in everything.
And you husbands must love your wives with the same love Christ showed the church. He gave up his life for her to make her holy and clean, washed by baptism and God's word. He did this to present her to himself as a glorious church without a spot or wrinkle or any other blemish. Instead, she will be holy and without fault. In the same way, husbands ought to love their wives as they love their own bodies. For a man is actually loving himself when he loves his wife. No one hates his own body but lovingly cares for it, just as Christ cares for his body, which is the church. And we are his body.
As the Scriptures say, "A man leaves his father and mother and is joined to his wife, and the two are united into one." This is a great mystery, but it is an illustration of the way Christ and the church are one

Roles:
• Husbands - love and sacrifice.
• Wives - submit.

Recently, my marriage life ain't that great as I had always wanted it to be... *sigh*

Sick...

I am sick.
Down with flu.
Must be from my dad.
Didn't take MC.
Must be stress and lack of Vitamin C
*ah-choo* *sniff sniff*


Suffered a little set-back yesterday.
I don't wanna to ever mention it again.
It is settle already, had a good talk.
Everything is fine now.
Thanks to those who had showed their concerns.

Changed my NRIC address last night.
Decided to give it a try again.
Give it a second chance.
If it fails again.
Devastation!

SCV Starhub

Hurray! From today onwards, I would get to watch SCV at Baku's place. He has subscribed to SCV from Starhub. Sounds childish but I wanted Disney Channel and Discovery Channel on the SCV. LOLx.
Did my eyebrows and lips today. Doubt Baku would notice it anyway as he is always very not observant by nature. Can't be bothered with me as usual, only interested in his WWE on the SCV. Hopefully, I would look good enough for the up-coming weddings of my two cousins, one next week and the other in January. Haiz, ai mei is part of a woman's life and to be trying to be as beautiful as possible is a woman's forte.
By the way, in order to beat the GST hike, Baku promised me that we would be searching as well as booking the wedding gown package by end of January 2007. Would be wondering will he remember his promise. He is a very fickled mind person and not very stable...

If only it's so easy to love,
Jesus would not have to sacrifice his precious life just to show His simple and pure love for us.
How truthful are you?
How pure is your love?
I have never want to find out the truth.
Coz I love you true.
Perhaps I should let the by-gones be lifted up and carried away by the wind
Coz the more you try, the more it hurts.

The above words are so true and somehow it speaks my heart... Thanks to the person who created these words that really expresses how I feel these days...

Nice Lyrics...

Precious moments
When will I see you again
When will we share precious moments
Will I have to wait forever
Will I have to suffer
And cry the whole night through?
When will I see you again
When will our hearts beat together?
Are we in love or just friends?
Is this my beginning
or is this the end?
When will I see you again?

I'm A Survivor!

I finally survived my 14.5hrs shift yesterday and earned myself an extra day off. Anyway, Ivy is on MC and would be back next week. Wow... so long. So shiok, work 4hrs only this week... What to do, people already kanna her confirmation already, so can ya-ya papaya already.
Anyway, yesterday throughout the whole day I was freaking tired as well as man-zhan... Fiza was also tired out although she wasn't on full shift like me. Kavita was in much discomfort due to her pregnancy, guess she would be on MC again today, leaving me much alone to handle the afternoon shift. Thus, another tired day at work today again... By the way, I don't even know when I would be able to claim my extra day off with so much stuff and MCs going on at my work place. *Sigh* My life just sux!!!

8am ~ 1030pm Work

I am going to try what my company calls a full shift tomorrow as Ivy would be on MC. Full shift would mean that I start work at 0800hrs and end work at 2230hrs (provided work can be finished on time). That is equavilent to 14.5hrs of work! I must be insane to have accepted this arrangement but poor Jolie has already did that kind of shift for 2 days now. She is freaking drained out by now. Ivy has been on MC since Monday and only came to work for 4hours today before going back home leaving tons of unfinished stuff for Sherry, Fiza and me to clear up...
Went for Jack's Place at Compass Point for dinner today to 'reward' and 'console' myself. However, I was not satisfied with the dinner... Rejected my steak 3 times!!!! Chao Ta Steak!!! First it was medium-well. Then, it was nearly well done but still had blood flowing from the surface. Lastly, it was chao-ta! The manager was not even professional and said that chao-ta is his defination of well done... Gosh!

Thanks To Geraldine

My blog layout was changed within 15mins, all thanks to Geraldine. She is a totally genius compared to me who knows nuts about HTMLs and those 'codes'.

Thanks ger! :) Remember, I owe you a meal...

Sinful Indulgences

Papa came back from China on Thursday and bought this bottle of Bailey's. However, I didn't know that this bottle of Bailey's exist in my house. It wasn't until Saturday night, while watching WWE with Baku, did this green bottle caught my attention. Sorry eh, green labels on any new bottles or drink catches my eye... Maybe only Ky, Baku and Geraldine would know the reason why. LOL!

Anyway, my eyes lit up when I read the label on the Bailey's and was even more thrilled to try it. Normally, I don't like Bailey because of the Irish Cream but this time, I was so excited to try it... Thus, I asked my dad for permission to open it, poured the contents in shooter cup, added a cube of ice, swirled it with the ice and drank it down in one shot... Yummy... Delicious!!! Yes, taste better than Grasshopper but still incomparable to Geraldine's specially concocted Heavenly Senses for me. Heehee, I really miss her Heavenly Senses a lot. This drink would probably rank second in my ultimate indulgences list of alcoholic drinks. First, would still be Heavenly Senses.

Back to work tomorrow, the weekend just flew by so fast. Another 5.5 days of work before the weekend arrives again. *sigh* Ivy would be on MC tomorrow. Baku and I are guessing that she probably is chao-kenging cause she only informed my supervisor at 2230hrs this evening. Kind of last minute. I feel that if she was really unwell, she should have informed my supervisor earlier to look for someone to cover her duties. So last minute and late already, how to find 'substitute'? My guess is that my supervisor would be covering her duties tomorrow again. Poor Jolie. We are so lack manpower...

Circumcision

ADVANTAGES OF A FULLY FUNCTIONAL FORESKIN:

1)To cover and bond with the synechia so as to permit the development of the mucosal surface of the glanspenis and inner foreskin.

2)To protect the infant's glans from feces and urine ammonia in diapers.

3)To protect the glans from friction and abrasion for a lifetime.

4)To keep the glans moisturized and soft with emollient oils.

5)To lubricate the glans

6)To coat the glans with a waxy protective substance.

7)To provide sufficient skin to cover the erection by unfolding and stretching.

8)To provide an aid to masturbation and foreplay.

9)To serve as an aid to penetration.

10)To reduce friction and chafing during intercourse.

11)To serve as erogenous tissue because of its rich supply of erogenous receptors.



In the end, I really wonder why Muslims must have their boy circumcised. The child wakes up in so much pain, having fear of pain when passing urine and screaming when cleansing is done even with normal saline or chlorhexidine... *sigh*

We Live In Singapura

Sang Nila, Utama
Saw a lion, alamak
Name the village Singapura, then run very far

Years later, ang mor came
Stamford Raffles was his name
Posed for statues very nice, we kenna colonize

(instru)

Singapura very strong
Big guns all, pointing wrong
Japanese, came on bikes, invade us from our backside

War is over, ang mor back
Singaporeans no respect
Commies come, make a fuss, Singapore independance!

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though it’s kind of crazy
We win other country

David Marshall, Lim Yew Hock
National Anthem starts to rock
Yusof Ishak the big man, guess who’s PM?

Malaysia say, come join me
Two of us be same country
Then not happy, Then make PM cry

PM Lee lead country
Build jurong and HDB
Made the country clean and green, opposition cannot win

JB Jeya no more funds,
Chee Soon Juan won’t eat his buns
Lim How Doong, what a goon, ‘Don’t talk cock’ in parliament

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Kick out from Malaysia Cup
Michael Faye pain in the butt
S-League, Tea Dancing, Ah Bengs love Modern Talking

McDonalds Hello Kitty
Everyone drink Bubble tea
Crushing cockroach Margaret Chan, James Lye is VR Man

(instru)

Reclaimation, Tuas Causeway
Malaysian water buay ho sei
Mahathir’s friend Datuk Anwar, Mathathir says he’s chow Ah Qua

NDP, aunties rush
Everyone it’s fun to flush
Bubble gums are all banned, ask your friends buy from thailand

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Driving car, not funny
Bid on cars with C-O-E
E-R-P, Road Tax, PARF until I want to barf

Why our locals have to pay?
Foreign talent are okay
Housing estate upgrade
by contractors who go pok kai

IMF must follow
Want to protest, go indoors
M-R-T not so fast
Newater they laugh at us

I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s in-teresting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Baby bonus, maid levy
Singtel Shares give out for free
Jack Neo, Kit Chan, sexy pastor Ho Yeow Sun

Beckham parties with models
Has affair but no one knows
S-league, go world cup, can come true if they don’t suck

Mahathir then Abdullah
Bar top dancing at the bars
Budget airlines start to pa (ie fight) Stop speaking Singlish lah

Gay is okay says PM
SM Lee becomes MM
PM Lee the same name, here we go all over again.

WE LIVE IN SINGAPURA!

Blood Sucker

Did health screening tests for some people at a company today. It was too busy. Started at 8am and ended at 1pm. Anyway, the picture shows my blood in a tube. Got someone to draw out my blood and I kept it. So nice! Finally, a dream come true... Yes, I had always wanted a tube of blood for my own 'safe-keeping'.
Chatted with Kyreen today and she told me a scary truth: Married couples would tend to need about 4-6years to get used to one another and thus, during this 4-6years, they would be constantly bickering... GOSH! Sounds so familiar! Wonder if my marriage would be able to with-stand 4-6years of bickerings and quarrels...
Baku made his Transition spectacles lenses this evening for a very cheap price (Baku is has disallowed me to mention the price. Yes very secretive, right?) Yeah, it was made in Bedok area with some promotion going on. I can't have Transition lenses as my degree is too high for it. So sad!

Weekends

Having monday blues and still recovering from a weekends packed with fun activities. Why does the weekends have to end so soon? Why does the weekends consist of only 2days instead of 3? Why does time have to fly by so fast when you are enjoying yourself? *sigh*

Worked until around 2plus on Saturday and went home to nap for a while before heading out to Kaijia's BBQ birthday party at Bedok Reservoir. It wasn't as noisy and crowded as I thought it would be, which is good as I hate noise and crowd. The party was good as I had time to sit down and chat with people. Left the party at around 11pm.

On Sunday, was awoken at 9am by my silly Baku asking me some medical stuff. Then, I went back to sleep until around 11am. In the afternoon, I went to attend Baby Cranston's one month celebration at Tenah Merah Country Club with buffet. The air-con was kind of spoilt so the staff had to bring out the fan to 'cool' the atmosphere. Sat down with my colleagues and mingled with them. Quite fun! Nearing the end of the party, Auntie Pauline reminded us that it was manners to eat the red eggs and we had one each even though we were so full from the buffet food. I ate 2! Yes, for those who don't really know me, one of my favourite food is also hard-boiled egg... Haha, anyway, I was too pai-seh to eat more so I left the party craving for more hard-boiled eggs. Thus, the moment I reached home, I took out 4 eggs and made my hard-boiled eggs and ate it 1hr later. So yummy!!! So all in all, I ate 6 hard-boiled eggs yesterday. Madness! :)

Monday is here again... Sianz!!! Back to a tedious work week again... Double sianz!!!

Just 4 You...

You have hurt me deeply years back,
Now, she too broke your heart,
All seems very drama,
All I can say to you is that it is just the works of KARMA...

Disappointment

SALES OF FIRST DBSS FLATS - THE PREMIERE AT TAMPINES

Sales Registration Number : 5000905Z
NRIC No : SxxxxxxxD




We are sorry to inform that your application for The Premiere at Tampines is unsuccessful due to overwhelming number of applications. As we have informed in the Sales Brochure, we are inviting applicants up to two (2) times the flat supply to select a flat.

Your queue position has exceeded 2 times the flat supply available for sale.

Thank you for your keen interest in this project.

Too bad... Didn't get the ballot... :(

Scrub 4 Circumcision

Did my first OT scrub today for a 8 year old boy's circumcision with Dr Zainal. It was kind of gross to see all the blood spilling out after the foreskin of the penis was cut off. The child was of course given sedation and Ketamine. However, I was wonder if this was done without sedation, just cut of the foreskin... Shiok man! Hmm... next time if Baku makes me boiling mad, I shall try doing it to him. *evil grin* Yes, I am sadist when a person makes me extremely mad.

My colleague, Kavita, has announced that she is pregnant. She says that this time, it was accidental. So lucky. Some people try and try also not pregnant. Others also try IVF but unsuccessful. Yet she is pregnant so easily... So lucky. Envious. I doubt I would have that chance with my PCOS and another factor that I can't reveal on this blog. Keke...

Broke my 2 fingernails today while trying to open the drawers of the auto-clave room and OT. Did the repair too... Haiz, long fingers are so hard to maintain, but guess I would continue keeping them as I am more or less liking it already.

Day Of Madness, Shopping and Vomitting

I would on 'stand-by' tomorrow. If I am not 'activated' it would be a day off for me. So nice, finally a weekend off for me (that is if I managed to get the day off).

Anyway, got an sms from Geraldine this afternoon telling me that she would need to under-go another major operation at SGH again soon. However, this time her opeation would be needing 10 units of blood on stand-by. Yes, 10 units! Madness! The most I ever heard was 4-5 units... I think her doctor really needs to admit himself to IMH or need to take his MBBS exams again...

Today, I witnessed an evacuation of uterus and saw bits and pieces of the unborn dead fetus being sucked out into a suction bag with lots of blood. Shiok! Digustingly shiok!

This evening, Baku and I decided to visit Vivo City to shop. The place is big and crowded. But the stuff sold in the shops don't attract me only bought some tops at Giodano and jelly beans from Candy Empire. We had dinner at a lousy restaurant called "The White Dog Cafe" <-- I think that is the name. Anyway, after I ate the food, I puked it all out!!! Gross! All the mushroom soup, oreo fraccupino, fish and chips and some spinach into the toilet bowl.

Ended up going back to Hougang Mall and ate at Hans. The food was so much better and tastier compared to that cafe. Bought myself a 'zhu-zhu' massager. It is very cute. The face of the pig... Oh yeah, I am a pig too: eat like pig, sleep like pig, lazy like pig and also born in the year of the pig. Haha!!!

Days Updated

Updates:
1) The tailor finally came to take my measurement for my uniform!
2) I am a full-fledge scrub nurse for OGDs and Colonoscopies!
3) Been quite irritated with my new colleague, Sherry, who happens to my mum-in law's friend so I am just going to give her some leniency and tolerate her incompetence for another few weeks or until she really gets onto my nerve.
4) I dyed my hair red and I still feel it ain't red enough. Anyway, the hairstylist told me that if I want to dye my hair blue-black, I would need to bleach my hair. Bleaching my hair would also means spoiling my hair totally. Thus, I decided I love my hair too much to bleach it.
5) Broke my acrylic nails 3 times already but I am still going to keep it. Getting very used to the long nails especially the 'clicking' sound of it when I tap it on surfaces... LOLx!
6) Re-united with Wenshan, Simin and Kaijia last saturday... Chatted and did some catching up latest the gossip of my ex-boyfriends as well as people I once knew. So nice... Wenshan is getting married next year...
7) Heard from Ivy that Sharon is quite satisfied with my work performance... That is a good news for me and also reassures me a bit. However, still a bit worried. Guess I would be worried until the day I get my confirmation and pass my probation...
8) Baku does my read my blog... That is good, as he would also know how I feel as I don't tell him everything or should I say, I am better expressing myself by writing or typing or blogging.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS!

6mths Being Married

I am a brunette now after 6mths of marriage! LOL!

You R Loved (Don't Give Up)

Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
When you're heart's heavy I,
I will lift it for you
Don't give up
Because you want to be heard
If silence keeps you I,
I will break it for you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
Don't give up
It's just the hurt that you hide
When you're lost inside I,
I'll be there to find you
Don't give up
Because you want to burn bright
If darkness blinds you I,
I will shine to guide you
Everybody wants to be understood
Well I can hear you
Everybody wants to be loved
Don't give up
Because you are loved
You are loved
Aaaah
Don't give up
It's just the weight of the world
Don't give up
Everyone needs to be heard
You are loved

Anyway, I think I am getting better at being a scrub nurse for OGDs... Anyone want to be my guinea pig and try my skills? *winks*
3 days more and I would be married for half a year already. The past 6mths was no honeymoon period, we still had our fair share of arguements and quarrels... But guess all couples go through this vicious cycle of quarreling and making up. I really miss the day we held our ROM as well as my bachlorette night with Anqi and Kyreen...

Hari Raya Gathering

Just came back from the Hari Raya gathering at Auntie Oyah's place. Have uploaded the pictures at my Multiply album. Do drop by, okie?
PS: Kyreen and Lili, you were missed by me at this gathering...
Thank God that 'old virgin' and Corina didn't attend it otherwise there wouldn't be so much laughter and fun there.

Kept Nails..

Yes, I made the decision to keep my nails for another 2 weeks more and this time I got them painted pearly blue... So next decision making would be on 18 Nov 2006!
Did scrub nurse today for 3 OGDs. Stressful and of course got scolded but yet I feel very pleased with myself and proud of myself for being able to do the scrub nurse. I survived 3 OGDs! Haha. Anyway, maybe I am being oversensitve these days, however, I feel that the atmosphere at work is very tense, especially when I am around. Wonder why... No more joking around with Sharon. No more being able to chat with Sharon as friends like few weeks back. :-(
(By the way, Sharon is my preceptor.)

Insecure

Today, I was very stoned at work due to lack of sleep last night.
Anyway, that is besides the point. The point is that today at work, my preceptor pointed out to me a few mistakes that I had made along way for the past few weeks, her attitude towards me these days were also pretty discouraging. The common mistakes I made was either over-charging or under-charging the patients. Another common mistakes made by me is the appointment system errors when I key in data. However, today, my preceptor told me a patient whom I had given IM injection few days ago had visited the clinic yesterday evening due to swollen injection site. This the first time I heard of such incident. All the while as a SN, this is the first time I had given IM injection and had such problem. Wonder what and where I had did wrong in this case.
My preceptor also told me 2 weeks ago that the tailor would be in last week to do the measurements for me. Then this week, she said the tailor would be doing it this week instead when my new colleague who would be joining us next monday comes to do the measurements also. However, my new colleague came to sign the letter of appointment yesterday but the tailor never came.
I just feel so insecure... I feel fearful that I wouldn't pass my probation... I fear that I am showing signs that I am not coping well in this new job. The truth is I am so far enjoying it a lot, in fact, I don't feel stressed working here. I fear the same thing that happened to me in RH would happen again... How?? *sad*

New Baby G

Bought myself a new watch yesterday. Been wanting a nice Baby G since the last time I owed one. My last Baby G, which was also a limited edition one was given away by my mum to another cousin who in the end lost it in the USA. That was when I was 15 yrs old. Since then, I told myself that I would buy a Baby G myself so that nobody could ever force me to give it away. Anyway, Baby G has also another model called the Miss G (G-ms) and this is it. Haha...

This blog song is dedicated to someone out there... Listen to the lyrics (although the song is not really complete but it is good enough to relay the message) and these are the words I want to say to you. To those who don't know who this 'special' person is.. happy figuring it out. LOL!

Updates...

Haven't been updating for a while... Been coming home pretty late after my afternoon shift which ends around 10.30pm. Anyway, also nothing much or significant that is happening during this period of time that I wish to blog about.
Hmm, I am still getting used to the acrylic nails especially when typing and writing but guess I am starting to like long nails. Haha, survived 1 week with it, next week tuesday will need to get it removed or refill it. Should I remove it or get a refill done then paint it a different colour? If I would get it painted, I would choose a pearly white or opal.
Thought of getting my hair dyed again, the last time of blue-black was unsuccessful... Shall see my mood this weekend to decide on the nails and the hair.
Work so far is good, no complains nor rants. Liking my work life so far, hoping to get my confirmation and work there permernantly. Speaking of which, Raffles still owes me my pay via cheque, the HR personnel says they would send it to me by registered mail latest by next Monday. Wonder how much also...
Still waiting for the tailor to get my measurements for my uniform... Getting quite a headache on daily pondering on what to wear to work.
HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEEPS!

Manicured Nails... Acrylic

I did my nails today finally after ponder for quite a few days...

Acrylic nails extention with liver red nail polish. For the first time in my life, I am dealing with long fingernails. LOLx. Wonder if my nails will be able to withstand my rough personality or if I would be for once dainty and take care of the nails for the next 2 weeks. See how! Come to think of it, Amelia being dainty? Gentle? Hmmz... Let's see...

Anyway, been quite a long weekend for me but not very meaningful as Baku has fallen ill and I have to kind of take care of him. That means no shopping and not much fun! I am not too well also, feeling giddy on and off. However, don't be mistaken, I am NOT pregnant, ok? Maybe just feeling also under the weather or rather haze.

Here's wishing my blog readers a 'Selamat Hari Raya Puasa' and 'Happy Deepavali'!

Baby Jaden

New Cupboard Of Our Own

OUR NEW CUPBOARD!!!!
Finally, a cupboard of our own in the room. Feel more like newly-weds now...
Did a bit of shifting our Queen sized bed and the computer desk... Quite tiring especially when I am morning shift today, however, I am just glad that we are finally having of cupboard for us to share... LOLx.

I Am Weird

I think I am a weird person...

I was surfing friendster and came across an acquintance from NYP. On his wife's friendster, I saw their wedding pictures. It was then did I realize he is married already... After scanning through her picture gallery and seeing the wedding pictures, I felt pretty much emotional. I was overwhelmed with envy and happiness for them. They were also one of those nursing couples (couples who had met and pa toh while studying our diploma in nursing). I remember knowing this guy during my year 1 attachments in SGH. This guy is one very friendly guy and easy to get along. The guy and me were pretty much friends but his girlfriend and Baku got jealous of us. They mistaken that guy and me... The girlfriend thought I wanted to be the 3rd party in their relationship and Baku thought I was falling in love for another guy. LOLx...

Anyway, that is besides the point. Ok, the point is that I feel that I am weird because everytime when I happen to see, hear and view anyone's wedding pictures or attend anyone's wedding dinner or church wedding, I would not only feel happy for that couple but also envious of them, especially the female. I would feel full of envy that she has found the man whom she can trust, love and be with for the rest of her life. I would feel full of envy that she is so blissfully in love. I would feel full of envy for her that she is about to enter into a new chapter in her life. I would feel full of envy that she is finally found the one, her Mr Right...

I thought this envious spree would stop once I am married or when I ROMed but it is not to be so... I don't understand why I am still envious of others who are getting married when I am already married too. Kyreen says maybe it is because I haven't go through my customary wedding. However, I don't think that is the reason... I am not sure myself. I am also married and have already gone through that happiest moment of my life. But I don't know why I am still in such awe and envy when I witness others walking down the aisle too. I think I am so weird...

3 Days Of Working Life

Ok, so I have been working for the past 3 days already. So far so good, I am enjoying it although my high heels are starting to kill me. Another thing that I am dreading is to wonder daily on what to wear to work as my uniform would not be ready until few months later. Looks like I have to stock up more on office wear soon.

Day1 @ work was more of orientation and getting to know the colleagues better. I also did a bit hands on with the computer system and helped with the paeds clinic in the evening.
Day2 @ work, I was able to be in the minor OT as an observer. I managed to watch how Hysteroscopy D&C and I&D of eye-lid abcess is carried out under pure I/V Dormicum and LA. Funny part was that during the D&C, the patient was supposed to be sedated with the Dormicum woke up, complained to the doctor that he was causing her lots of pain and even asked him to stop to rest for a moment. Of course, the doctor ignored her (so cruel!) and carried on with the operation. Anyway, after the operation, the patient still can tell me that she find the doctor so 'chor lor'.
Day 3 @ work, I was in the endoscopy room observing OGD and Colonoscopy done under I/V Pethidine and Dormicum. The doctor who did the colonoscopy was kind of rough with the handling of the colonoscope, the way he handle it was like as if he was driving a truck.

Anyway, everytime I come back from work is around 11+ pm, thus, I have no more energy left to surf the net for long and do my bloggings... Tired but contented... Praying still that whatever happened in RH is going to be history and will not happened to me again... RH still owes me money.

Hazy Weathers

The hazy weather condition is so irritating... Want to go out to buy working shoes in preparation to start work on Monday, however, as I look out of the window, the hazy atmosphere simply just pisses me off. Guess I would have to buy it tomorrow evening by hook or crook.

Wonder why Indonesian government allow such burning of the plots of lands and 'contamination' of the surrounding air. So selfish! It doesn't bother me if they want to pollute their own atmosphere and run the risk of health problems with their own citizens BUT to allow the burning hence affecting the neighbouring countries is not acceptable...

By the way, Baku and I had submitted our names for the balloting of 'The Premier', a newly launched flat that would be ready by 2009. Not sure if we would get it as few years back, we also submitted our application for 'The Pinnacle'. Anyway, Baku's mum seems to feel that the cost of this flat is a bit expensive and Baku as usual, is now having 2nd thoughts of wanting the flat even if we manage to get the ballot.

Have a look at the website...
http://www.simlian.com.sg/main.html

Black Rose

One of my favourites flowers...
Anyone volunteer to buy for me a dozen of it??

Raffles Hospital

Went back to RH yesterday to collect my cheque and saw my ex-locker. Apparently, someone tore off my 'Amelia' word and replaced it with 'Shuting's Locker'. Felt so hurt...
Anyway, heard from my colleague tat she is also resigning from RH as she had found herself a better job with better pay. She also verbalized that she don't feel good having the new girl, Kelly, bossing around just because she is the 'pet' of some big shot.
Discovered a cervical growth today. Oops, hope it isn't is cervical cancer. Going to the family doctor tomorrow to get it checked. Hopefully, it is just a polyp growth. Wonder why do I have to always suffer so many female reproductive problems? Why am I so unlucky? As if my life is not headache enough...

First Post Of October

1) Signed my letter of offer at my new work on 29 Sep 2006
2) Collected the cheque and returned our SK wedding bands on 29 Sep 2006
3) Collected our new wedding today from Citigems.
4) Returning my RH uniform tomorrow and at the same collecting my cheque from them.

I Found My Rainbow

I found my rainbow yesterday evening...
Got a call from the company and was told that I have been offered a position as a SN.
Hurray!
Starting work on 9 Oct 2006.
Signing the appointment letter tomorrow.
So happy.
15mins walk from Baku's place.
40mins bus ride from my house.
Pay also reasonable.

Now, just crossing my fingers that I can get this job forever and permanently. Hopefully, whatever that had happened to me at Raffles won't happen again. Too devastating if the same thing happened again...

Hady Won... Boo...

As I am predicted Hady won. I just knew it. No matter how hard I root for Jonathan, the malay community will put Hady to be the winner... *sigh*

I have mailed my resume to KKH and IMH. Yes IMH, I guess not many people know that actually I also kind of enjoy working with mentally ill patients. They can be scary when violent but they can also be funny. Their irrational believes and their behaviors are quite funny.

Baku works with insane people and when he tells me his experience with these sort of people, I find them very funny. At the same time, I sympathize with them for living in a society where there is a stigma against mentally ill people even when they are put on regular medications. I agree that their insanity would somehow relapse when under certain circumstances, but they are afterall still human. They need our understand and not rejection. They need our help to rehabilitate them not to condemn them. Actually not just insane people need our support, those mentally challenged, orphans and ex-offenders too. They too need our acceptance but it seems the cruelty of the society is to stigmatize them and cast them aside.

Anyway, I am also not sure when my rainbow would appear but in the meantime, thankfully when all people think I am communication problems and reprimand me for losing my Raffles job, there is still Baku who understands that I am innocent and sympathize with me for my lost.

Singapore Idol Finals Tonight!

The finals of Singapore Idol would be held tonight. Well, at least something to look forward to for today... Have been very upset for the past 2 days even though I have not shown it much to the people around me. I admit that I am a pretty weak person internally but I tend not to show it for the fear that people would mock at me...

Anyway, I am rooting for Jonathan Leong to win but somehow, I feel that history would repeat itself and the winner would be a muslim guy again. Not that I have something against muslims, but I feel the muslims tend me more united and fight strongly for their 'own people'.

Went out with Kyreen yesterday, walked the streets of Orchard Road and I realized that we were two very upset people even though others may think that we are happy people. Kyreen shared her own problems and I shared mine. We realized that even though our problems are different in nature but we are equally upset about it. I told that I wanted to cry about my problem but I just can't. She too. It set me thinking.. Why are tears so hard to flow when we needed them to flow to help us feel little better? Then, during times when we don't intend for them to flow, they just flow so easily and we can't fight them back no matter how hard we try?

I really wonder what did I do to deserve such bad luck to happen to me? First it is my wedding band. Now it is my lost of job... I really wonder when would I find my next job and would history repeat itself? I used to be confident that I am happy and stable in Raffles Hospital but I was wrong, just one complaint letter to the CEO and I am kicked out without even knowing what I had done wrong and even a chance to explain myself. So cruel!

I am trying very hard to be strong and think positively that my lost of job is just temporary. That the lost of job is just a way of God's greater plan to show me the path to a better suited job for me. Wonder when would that time come? I would be losing SGD 1400 soon to compensate the agency who recommend me Raffles Hospital. I feel so innocent but yet have to go through such stuff. When would I be happy again?

As the chinese saying goes, when the boat reaches the harbour, things will straighten out. But when would that time comes?? *sigh*

Woes

No one ever saw me like you do
All the things that I could add up to
I never knew just what a smile was worth
But your eyes say everything without a single word

[chorus]
Cause there’s something in the way you look at me
Its as if my heart knows you’re the missing piece
You made me believe that there’s nothing in this world I can’t be
I never know what you see
But there’s something in the way you look at me

If i could freeze some moment in my mind
Be the second that you touch your lips to mine
I’d like to stop the clock, make time stand still
‘Cause baby, this is just the way I always wanna feel

*chorus*

I dont know how or why I feel different in your eyes
All I know is it happens everytime

[repeat chorus]

The way you look at me

PS: Baku, I love you and thanks all your loving and supporting during the times I am down and depressed. I am very grateful that I am still your Bitto even after 6 years... May we continue to be as one forever... I love you...

Bad News and Good News

Bad News:
1) Baku and I would be refunding our ring to SK jewellery and not going to have anymore liasing with SK jewellery in the future. I take as we have 'lost' the battle but I am not going to stop bad mouthing them to anyone or to any body who ask me for any feedback with regards to SK jewellery.

2) I am not longer with Raffles Hospital with immediate effect as my ass has been fried. Some weird patient's complained about me and my 'step-mother' to the CEO of Raffles Hospital. Best of all, they didn't even give me a chance to defend myself much and even read the complain letter. How unfair! Raffles Hospital also told me to keep this complain a hush -hush matter and not let any of my colleagues know about it. I feel so indignant but what can I do? Now I have to pay Recruit Express an estimated of SGD1400 in penalty for something that isn't my fault at all! That is the bad part of working in a private hospital setting where money comes first rather than anything else. This also means, I have to start all over again to find a job... How depressing!

Good News:
1) Baku and I have already found our wedding bands from Citigems jewellery and would be collecting the rings on 3 Oct 2006! The price of the ring is also lower than the refund for our SK jewllery wedding bands, this means we cover cost and even have extra cash more...

2) Baku is thankfully very supportive and even very encouraging towards me for losing this job. He is helping me to think positively through this tough time. However, I am still very much upset over the lost of the job.

Ear Infection

Since last week, I have been having this ear-ache but I didn't do anything about it as I thought it would go away by itself. But no, it had to persist until today, when I cannot stand the pain any furthur, then did I go to the doctor's to have it checked. As expected, ear infection again...
Wonder why am I having this ear infection???
Could it be..
1) My ear misses NM Chan's constant nagging 24/7 until when now I am kind of away from her, then my ear drum is protesting? Hee hee... or...
2) My ear is now undergoing a 'step-mother' lecture daily until my ear drum cannot stand it and decided to have an infection? (By the way, my 'step-mother' is this locum nurse who works at my work place and would be leaving on Tuesday. I heard that Raffles had kicked her butt as they have already employed me. Thus, she has to go... Too bad for her... Anyway, I could see why no one likes her and the previous few staffs had left because of her attitude and mannerism.)

Watched this dumb and lame Japanese horror show today called "Haunted Apartment". Not as nice as the movie I watched called "Art Of The Devil 2" and "Stay Alive" last week. However, the best so far I watched recently is called "Ghost Game". I would be watching "Pulse" tomorrow, saw that 8days magazine had given it a two out of five star rating...

Invincible

I don't have nerves of steel
I have a heart that feels
I may have cried a million tears but I wont drown

I let myself unfold
Gave you my hand to hold
You took me beyond where I could see
And then you let go of me. . .

I was damaged by the fall
Got the wind knocked out of me
To be standing here at all
I must be invincible

I thought that I would break
But now I have come to see
Something strong and beautiful
Inside of me
I must be invincible. . .

I dont have X-rays eyes
Don't have a heart so wise
How could I have known you'd let me down

If I had known back then my eyes are wide open
I still believe I would risk it
There is no way I would've missed it

I was damaged by the fall
Got the wall knocked out of me
To be standing here at all
I must be invincible

I thought that I would break
But now I've come to see
Something strong and beautiful
Inside of me
I must be invincible...

Ahh. . . its a blessing and a curse
Ahh. . . But I found out just what you've worth

Working Life

I am finally blogging again after a week of working life!
First two days of work was like boring... reading protocols, self orientation to the new environment, reading the basic stuff that I a newbie should be reading.
After those two days, I was back to working as a newbie nurse in the clinic and I coped pretty well. Of course there were like things that I am unsure of or when I get stuck during work and I had to ask my other colleagues to help me. My working colleagues are all very nice, friendly and helpful. I even met the girl who 'stole' my ENT position and she is my NYP lecture group-mate. Haha, small world! She knows Kyreen too!!!
Anyway, I found out that actually I was place in Children's Clinic because they found my personality was more bubbly and they felt that it suited Paeds more than ENT setting. So never, I don't really care anymore because I am so far happy with the kids and have started to blend into the busy clinic settings.
Guess I would be updating my blog every weekend cause I would be very tired after work and won't have the energy to blog. Haha...

Work Tomorrow

START WORKING TOMMORROW...
Bought Vit C tablets to protect myself and the kids that I would be working with. Don't wish myself to fall ill and pass the germs to them. Anyway, if I should fall ill or need to take a day off, it would be considered as NPL (no pay leave) as I am under probation until December onwards...
Baku booked out today and would be going back to camp tonight. Awaiting for Friday to come, then he would officially be out of his reservist and can start wearing his wedding band again. He said that he doesn't want to scratch the ring any furthur during his reservist, thus, he is not wearing the wedding band. I think it is an excuse... Oh well, guys are hard nuts to crack...

2days More To Enjoy

I am left with another pathetic 2 days before I start work again. This time in a new working environment.
1/9/2006: Went out with Lili to Bugis and brought her to my future working place and she was all in awe of the place. Haha, like mountain tortoise... Anyway, went to her house for a while and helped her to cook dinner. Had dinner at her place, met her hubby for the 1st time- nice guy, just a bit MCP. BAKU BOOKED OUT YESTERDAY... Yeah! So happy!!! Stayed over his place and he went back to camp this early morning. Hee hee...

2/9/2006: Went for pedicure and eye-brow shaping with Kyreen. Did facial mask at her place before going to CHC. Had dinner at Changi Airport T2 and now I am back...

Hands to Heaven - Breathe

As I watch you move, across the moonlit room
There's so much tenderness in your loving
Tomorrow I must leave, the dawn knows no reprieve
God give me strength when I am leaving

CHORUS:
So raise your hands to heaven and pray
That we'll be back together someday
Tonight, I need your sweet caress
Hold me in the darkness
Tonight, you calm my restlessness
You relieve my sadness

As we move to embrace, tears run down your faceI
whisper words of love, so softly
I can't believe this pain, it's driving me insane
Without your touch, life will be lonely

CHORUS

Morning has come, another day
I must pack my bags and say goodbye, goodbye

CHORUS

Raffles... Here I Come.

Feelings of getting the job:
1) Elated (of course! Got money to spend again.)
2) Worried (wondering if my PR skills can 'survive' me through all the rich people's expectations.)
3) Excited (new colleagues, new supervisors, new working environment.)
4) Upset (no more freedom and free time to meet up with my friends daily.)
5) Gonna miss Ward 11 colleagues more... *sigh*

Anyway, signed the letter of appointment today, collected the uniforms, paid the agency fee and did the routine pre-employment health check-up. All done! Starting work next Tuesday at 0830hrs. Orientations would be in October instead of next week.

Meeting Baku next Monday for dinner before he goes back to reservist again... Funny how I don't really miss him that much as I thought I would. Maybe because I am having daily activities to keep my mind off and that I still can get to chat with him daily.

So Happy!

Just called the official call from Raffles Hospital on my employment.
I would be going down on tomorrow to do some administrative work... Then start work officially on Monday.
I would also be going down to my recruitment agency to pay the fee of SGD 52.50 tomorrow....
My working area is Children's Clinic!!!! Hooray! Paeds- one of my wanted discipline!!! The pay is also higher than my expectations... Better than SGH pay... The amount is a secret but if you are curious and want to know then ask me personally ok?
The working hours are 8-5, 1-9 and 2-10...
By the way, I snipped off my hair tail already. No more havoc... 5 days more to working life again. Kind of excited and anxious...

Job Found!!!

Hey! I found a job finally, at last! So happy! It is at RAFFLES HOSPITAL! Cool!
I thought I blew it as they didn't get back to me for the past 2 weeks when they said they would get back to me by 17 August 2006. Thank God! I am very thrilled...
I got myself a job by my date-line of 11 Sep 2006. No more job interviews! No more endless waiting! No more resume application! Hurray!
Now I am just waiting for Raffles Hospital to get back to me with regards on the pay as well as furthur information on when I can start work! So happy! Although I am waiting for their reply now, I am waiting happily. At least I know I got myself a job confirmed! Hee hee! Lalalalala!!!!
I am really going to be one happy woman if they give me SGD 1700 as I have requested but SGD 1600 also can, as long as it is Raffles Hospital...

Reservist

Baku would be going on his reservist from tomorrow onwards until 7 Sep 2006. 2 weeks of freedom! Time to go wild and go the stuff I have always longed to do... Like chill out until late night...
Anyway, of course I also will somehow miss him but guess if I managed to keep myself busy daily, the missing wouldn't be that bad, right? Hopefully, I can get a job by the end of the 2 weeks. Kind of running low on cash already...
Tomorrow, Raffles Hospital 'promised' to give me a reply on whether I am employed or not. They have been keeping me waiting for their reply for so long. Wondering if they are making waiting is a bad sign or what. Nevermind, as I have already decided, if by Sep 11, I still cannot find a job, I would do private nursing which I feel would be more meaningful. One to one nursing...
Ok, peri-menses cramps setting in already... Need warm compress and rest... Bye bye...

Pissed Off

Kindly 'protect' yourself from such unethical service from SK Jewellery.

My husband and I bought a True Love wedding band from SK Jewellery last year. We were told that this series of wedding band is more durable for 24/7 wearing as the white gold they use is thick and the possibility of the diamond stud dropping is very minimal unless a hammer is used to knock the diamond out. Hence, he gave us a 99.99% assurance that this wedding band is durable.
Currently, what happened was this wedding band was only worn for 3 mths. Last week, after we sent it for 'washing' via their ultrasonic machine, one of the diamond stud dropped off. We were told that the ring would be sent back to their HQ for repair and a report would be given to us to let us know the reason for the diamond stud to have dropped off.
A week later, a customer relations officer called us and we were told that the staff of SK was not supposed to have use the machine to wash the ring or probably the SK staff had tuned the machine to a higher speed level which he/she shouldn't have. She also stated that every ring is made with a 'sensitive' spot. Thus, if the 'sensitive' spot had been knocked, the diamond stud would be loose.After much discussion, we were told that they would either refund us the full amount or they would just make us another ring. Since, my husband and I felt that we didn't want a refund, chose the second option of getting the wedding band replace. However, we had a request that should the wedding band be made with workmanship, we would reject the ring. The operational manager, who claims that that he is in the biggest position to make decision, refused to allow us to reject the replacement ring should the workmanship be poor.
My husband who was very unhappy about his attitude said he would be like to complain against him. Instead of apologizing for his poor service attitude, he continued to explain to us in a cocky attitude that he has the biggest authority in the company and his superiors would not entertain us, the buyers of their product, thus should we want to make a complaint regardless of what issue, it would be made through him.
My husband and I are currently going through C.A.S.E to resolve this issue. However, I would like to make this known to all ladies and gentlemen not to buy any product from SK jewellery so as to prevent such unfortunate event from happening to anyone else.Thanks for taking the time to read this...

Pix Updated

Took me the whole afternoon to upload my pictures... At last...
Do go take a look ok?
http://mintger.multiply.com/photos/album/15

My Trip

Ok, now I shall blog about my trip on a day to day basis:

Day1:
Reached Cameron Highlands at 7am in the morning after a 8 hour plus bus trip. The bus alighted us at a hawker centre for breakfast. The weather was very very chilling, so chilling that I have to grab my jacket to keep myself slightly warmer. Baku and I had a cup of hot syrup tea (I call it syrup tea because it was so sweet). We had in mind not to eat the food there as they don't seem to match our taste-buds. Anyway, we could have room-service when we reach the hotel. A mini van came to pick us up at 8.15am as we were the only two people in the coach going to Strawberry Park Resort.
Reached the hotel at 8.30am and was told that we can't check in yet as the rooms are not ready and the check-in time is at 2pm or earliest 12noon. Wow! We freaked out! We had no choice but to patiently await 2pm to come. By 9.30am, we were famished during our wait and decided to use our free breakfast coupon which wanted to reserve for the next day to eat the breakfast buffet.
At around 11am, the check-in counter lady finally allowed us to check in and we proceeded to our room. As we were dying for a good bath, we were shocked to read a notice in the bathroom that the water heater would need 20mins to 'produce' hot water. No choice... wait again. Then, we realized that the room had no towels for bathing. Baku called the reception counter and was told that towels were only available after 12noon. What the crap! Too bad... Decided to watch TV first while waiting for the water heater to be ready and the remote control of the TV was not working. I called the maintainence and was told that it was not their problem but they would call the housekeeping department.
After our bath, we took a nap until 2pm as we had a half day tour which is at 3pm.
first stop of the tour was cactus farm where we got to see different types of cactus and beautiful types of flowers. After that the tour brought as to strawberries plantation where I got to eat fresh strawberry, pluck my own strawberries and we bought 4 bottles of strawberry jam. Then proceeded, to a vegetable plantation where maize, cameron apples, cai xin, xiao bai chye were grown. Next stop was at the water-crest farm, we had to climb all the way down the valley to see the water-crest. The journey down was not tedious and the journey up was tiring and everyone was panting by the time we reached back up. After the water-crest stop, we were brought to plantation of bell-peppers. They grew different colours of bell-peppers: red, green, yellow, white and purple. Last stop was at the place where chrysanthum were grown. Very beautiful sight, yellow, purple, lilac and deep purple.
We were brought for dinner at a 'restaurant', not bad food except there were many houseflies around. *sigh* Village restaurant kind so what do you expect.
After dinner, we decided to walk the pasar malam there. Nothing much. Baku brought some honey and I bought a bunch of lilies which would cost SGD 120 but there it merely cost SGD 5. Vast differences right? Anyway, the roses there were also nice.
Returned to the hotel at around 9.30pm. Had a nice bath-tub bath and ate my strawberries while watching TV. We slept around 11.45pm as we had to get up around 8am to set off for Genting the next day.
Day2:
Proceeded to Genting at 8.30am. It took 2.5hours before finally got down from Cameron... The bus went on for another 2 hours and stopped by KL for a while and we transferred to a smaller van before driving up to Genting. After driving for around 1 hour, the van driver asked us to alight to allow the engine to cool down otherwise the engine would be over-heated. *Sigh* For the rest of the journey up to Genting, the van was crawling...
At last we reached Genting at 3pm. Checked in at the Resort Hotel. Not bad, the room was big with two queen-sized bed. We then proceeded for lunch at Kenny Rogers. At First World Plaza, there were so many people. The queue to but the theme park tickets was long too. It was the Malaysia school holidays, that explains the huge crowd, moreover, it was a weekend also.
After lunch, we walked around and proceed to M Spa to book our treatments at 10.30pm. The spa and treatments cost around SGD 120, including jacuzzi, sauna and gym usage. Cool!
Then, we went back to the hotel for a bath and we rest for a little while...
8pm, we woke up for dinner and a sucky place. Did you know that a plate of plain rice with fried bean sprout, fried long beans and a fried egg cost SGD 5?! So expensive and the food is not at all fantastically good taste. Baku ordered chicken rice which cost around SGD 4.50 and the taste of the chicken sucks.
Bought 1.15am movie tickets for the show Long Hu Men and went for our Spa. The swendish massage was good, not to forget the jacuzzi. Wow, heavenly indulgences... They even had one assistant to follow you to serve you. So nice...
Watched the movie in Cantonese, I had to read the English subtitles to understand what the show was about and our tickets is in the fourth row from the front. So we had to strain our necks just to watch the show.
After the show ended, we proceed to Coffee Bean at our hotel lobby as Baku was feeling very cold from the temperature, while I was enjoying the cooling-ness of the weather. We ordered Earl Grey tea, English Breakfast and a chicken pie.
Went back to our rooms to sleep at around 4.30am.
Day 3:
Woke up at 8am feeling hungry, had buffet breakfast at the hotel cafe which cost SGD 10. After breakfast, went back to our rooms to pack up, had a bath and checked out at 1pm. Boarded the bus back to Singapore at 2.30pm. The bus we took was a double decked bus. What made be irritated was this elderly man sitting in front of me! During the whole trip back to Singapore he was inclining and declining his seat so many times and as his chair was kind of spoilt, the chair inclined so backwards that it hit my leg few times. This man knew he the chair had hit me and he can't be much bother either and didn't even apologize. He just continued his ways of inclining and declining the chair as when he wants. I got so fed up and decided to use my leg to push his chair and I guessed it irritated him too as the last 2 hours back to Singapore, he did not decline his chair anymore.
Reached back to Singapore at around 9.45pm. Had dinner and went back home. So tired...


Okie, I am done. Photos would be uploaded at a later date. Will inform once it is uploaded...

Back From Trip

I don't wanna blog much too tonight. Maybe tomorrow... FREAKING TIRED AND IRRITATED! Will blog about the whole trip tomorrow. Photos will be uploaded soon when I go to Baku's place. Hee hee...
Looks like the Raffles Hospital lady is a liar... 90% of employing me in the ENT clinic.. (like shit!) Now it is ZERO percent. Nvm, I was considering private nursing as the last resort. Have until Sep 11 to find myself the job I desire.
In the meanwhile, will blog tommorrow again. Nitez!

Another Test

I did this online test of personality (gotten from CW's web) and wow, I am amazed by the results. The analysis is so pretty true...
You have always longed for tenderness, love and a sensitivity of feeling into which you would like to blend. You are a very gentle warm person and responsive to 'All things bright and beautiful'. This personifies a caring person, a person who 'needs' and indeed 'needs to be needed'.In the past there have been - and maybe there still are - many things that you have had to do without. You have now decided to set your sights on a position or situation that could give you greater prestige and which will afford you considerable self esteem.You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all - heart and soul - to all those that show you a little affection; but take care - it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Idol Fever

My lastest crush of the Singapore Idol 2006. Jonathan Leong!
Can't believe that I would be like a young teenager fanatic again. Hee hee... In Singapore Idol 2004, it was Sylvester Sim and now Johnathon.
Anyway... off to holidays tomorrow. God bless this journey and may I return in one piece. Still awaiting the good news from Raffles Hospital. Hopefully, they would call me tomorrow, if they don't call means BAD NEWS... :(

Disaster

This evening, Baku and I sent our wedding bands for polishing and guess what... the diamond from my wedding band dropped out!!! OMG! The guy who polished could still tell us that luckily the ring dropped in their shop and at least they can replace it. They also 'blamed' that I may not knocked the ring too hard in these few months. What crap! I rebuked that when we bought the ring, the sales-guy told us that the ring is 99.99% hardy and the diamonds won't drop out unless we used a hammer to knock it out. That is the main reason why we bought the ring in the first place. They say that the diamond of the ring is virtually impossible to drop as it is placed in with laser technology.
Anyway, the shop would send the ring back to their HQ and get it investigated to check out on what is the fault that caused the diamond to drop out. We will only get a reply by NEXT WEDNESDAY (so long). Hopefully, they will give us a good and decent reply otherwise I will shoot them until they are speechless. Just 3months and the diamond drop out, talk about being durable and only hammering would cause the diamond to drop out.
By the way, to all couples or whoever who attempts to buy their jewellery from SK Jewellery, DON'T, cause that is where my wedding band is from. So lao ya one!
I have an interview tomorrow at Raffles' Hospital in an ENT outpatient clinic. Pray that I can get it and start work on 1 Sep 2006, $$ kind of running low already... At least, if I got the position, I can go for holidays in peace. *sigh*
(still shock and upset over the wedding ring matter) Stoned now...
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Cooking @ Ky's

Yesterday, Ky and me did some cooking together at her place. Met up with her at 0920hrs for shopping of ingredients at Hougang then proceeded to her house to cook lunch for her family.
Menu:
Chicken Salad
Penne with Mushroom sauce (pine nuts and chicken sausage added)
Stir fried french beans with pacific clams
Sounds like a simple fare right? Haha.. just hoped that her family members truly enjoyed the meal.

After the cooking, we rested for a while before proceeding to City Harvest at Expo. Been a long long time since I last attended church service and the last time I stepped into City Harvest was like 7 years back when it was still at Paya Lebar, managed to find Jaqueline, my cell group leader when I was in City Harvest. She looks so great and fabulous even after bearing 3 kids.

Appreciated the topic of the day: The Role and Responsibilities Of A Wife
Conclusion: The role of the wife is to be a helper to her husband and that is to encourage him constantly to pursue his dreams or visions. The main responsibility of a wife is to submit to her husband just as she submits to the Lord. However, submission doesn't mean blinded obdience.

After church service, Kyreen and I proceeded to Century Square for foot reflexology. First time doing a foot reflexology... Ouch! Lolz. Kyreen also met another 'admirer', a young man who doesn't look too bad, quite well built and tanned too. However, Kyreen feels that he is creepy... Haha... So Kyreen has a sugar daddy in SGH and a secret admirer from the foot reflexology. How lucky can she ever get, man!

Going on a short vacation this coming Thursday to Sunday.

Happy Birthday Singapore

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Nice

Dayz Of Freedom:
1) Free and easy
2) Relaxing
3) Exciting
4) Elating
5) Dull at times when no one accompany me
6) Obstructive to my Baku ('cause I always disturb him)
7) Massive time on hand to waste :)

Guess I will rest and hang around until 11 Sep 2006 and if I can't get a job by then, then I would start to worry. LOLx
By the way, my ward staff threw a surprise farewell party for me today. So touched!!!! I cried! Yes, I, Amelia Chen, cried. So touched by their efforts... I thought that only happens to other people NOT me...

I Quit!

Tendered my resignation today. Thus, I am jobless now and a free bird.
Feelings:
1) Elated that I am free now
2) Relieved that everything is finally over
3) Worried for when my next job offer will come
4) Hopeful that the next job offer would be fast and good

Intend to relax for at least a month before taking up anymore job offers for now...
Been a tough 3 years of nursing...

This Song Expresses My Current Feelings

This is the lyrics to Corianne May's Journey. I somehow stumbled upon this song while I was surfing the net feeling all so depressed and yearning for something to to cheer me up. I am unsure why I was led to song perhaps it is the works of Him. Perhaps He is trying to remind as well as to reassure me, to let me know that He is beside me while I am all out of hope, feeling of overwhelmed with sadness, wondering when I would be truly happy again like I was 16 years of age.
Been confiding in Him a lot recently, telling him how upset and hopeless I feel as days past without any occasion that is worth my genuine joy. After hearing this song, I kind of feel like crying and hide in His presence forever. It just reminded me how carefree I was when I was younger and how confident I was that He is by my side at all times to protect me from any harm or hurt in my daily life. Somehow, I lost that confidence along the way when I entered Nursing and began starting my career as a nurse. So many unpleasant events happened since then, my confidence and pride suffered. I felt more and more helpless. I felt alone. I didn't feel any stronger but weaker.
PS: Thanks for your reminder to me that you are always by my side still after all these years while I forgotten about you and your presence. Thanks for letting me know that you still treasure me and have not forsaken me no matter what. Thanks for the reassurance that I can still seek your refuge in you. Thanks for all your blessings for my marriage to Jeff and please continue to bless the relationship for many years to come. Thanks for everything you have done in the past years since the day I know you, been 9 years now... Lastly, thank you for showing me the way back to your presence today... Amen. Thank you...
I feel so much better after typing this entry. Guess one of my longest entry since I started my blog. I am glad that I have regained my composure after losing it for nearly 7 years. Thank God.


It's a long, long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long, long journey
and I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long, long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it seems no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
'Cause it's a long, long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long, long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Happy Nurses' Day

Today is nurses' day. SGH had their own celebration with lots of food, drinks, balloons and of course blasting music. NM Chan was in a pretty good mood, I was wondering why until much later my ward clerk told me that some of my ward colleagues had contributed cash to buy her flowers, chocolate and a card for nurses' day. No wonder...

Met Siti Muliani, my batch girl who graduated with me to Ward 53A and transferred to Ward 55A together. She said she was leaving to Mount Elizabeth in 2 weeks time. So nice... Everyone is leaving for a better future. Everyone has found themselves a 'back-door'. Everyone except me...

Anyway, dropped by Kyreen's new work-place and she just teared... Not sure if those were tears of joy, tears due to stress, tears due to being touched that we dropped by or tears of elation of seeing us again. *sigh* Miss her so much...

I started clearing my locker too. Felt so badly that I want to resign soon. Felt like an emptiness after knowing that Kyreen is no longer part of the Ward 11 'family' and NM Chan had gotten someone so fast to replace Kyreen. I am not sure why, but when I opened my locker to clear some of my stuff, I felt like a dreading feeling that the locker beside mine (Kyreen's ex-locker) is now filled with the new staff's stuff. Not that I don't welcome the new staff but I just find it so hard to accept Kyreen's departure from our ward. No more gossiping, no more jokes about that 'old virgin' and no more going home by NEL together... *sigh*

Goodbye Kyreen

I have just been given two days MC due to backache. Been told by the doctor that I have a slight Scoliosis. So sad... That means I won't be able to attend Kyreen's farewell party in the ward. Baku says he want me to follow the doctor's orders and rest at home more. Of course, I know that he cares for me, that is why he forbids me to going back to the ward tomorrow...

Actually, I don't know if it is a blessing in disguise that I have my MC or not... Firstly, of course I am happy that I can get to rest but run the risk of NM Chan's nagging and counselling. Secondly, I wouldn't get to see Kyreen for the last time as my colleague and I know that I would miss her very much. I fear that if I go tomorrow, I may tear uncontrollably and reveal my true self to my other colleagues.

Anyway, Kyreen, if you are reading this entry: I wish you all the best in your new department and don't forget to date me out when you are free. Plus, don't forget to visit Ward 11 when you are free. Keep in touch via MSN and SMS ok? Take care! Will miss you lots, the ward would be duller without your presence for me to ventilate all my frustrations that I have with 'old virgin' and the other person who always never fail to irritate me with her hyper-stress behaviour but never produce any results. (I'm sure you know who it is.)

NM Chan So Sick

Recently, our ward tap water has been tested to confirm that the tap water is contaminated and not fit for consumption. Thus, we have been advised not to drink or serve water from the tap anymore.

Wonder if NM Chan has been poisoned by that water? Heard that she is having very bad diarrhoea until she had to go A&E for I/V hydration. She is currently on MC until next monday. Wow! I was also told by Morin that her faeces looked like coke. *gross* Anyway, Morin also said that NM Chan shitted on her bed in the middle night and had to wake up to wash the bed linen and her panty. Sounds very funny... I know I am very mean to be laughing at her. But well, I feel this is probably her retribution for being such a mean supervisor to us. Moreover, when I was admitted to CGH for diarrhoea also she didn't even sound empathetic and sounded suspicious like as if I faked it. Now it is time for her to feel how I felt that time. Good. Teach her a lesson.

I went for my job interview at Recruit Express today. I think I can forget about Joey and her company already. So unreliable! Recruit Express staff, Sherry, said she would apply for KKH, CGH, Raffles and SATA for me. Awaiting her good news then. In the meanwhile, peeps please pray hard for me that I can find a good job and stable one too. Don't wish to change job anymore if the next job offer is good.

My New Handphone

My new handphone with 3G functions. Very expensive eh. My jaw almost dropped when I heard the price of it. Bought it 'cause it is light and is silver in colour... *heartache*

Post Night Duty

OMG, I am so tired. Completed my night duty with a very eventful night or should I say morning...
Came to work to recieve a call from my nagging ward NM to ask me for a memo on a OCD patient's relative who totally refused patient to be admitted to our cabin ward 2 nights ago. This OCD relative decided to write in a complaint on A&E staff for not informing her of cabin condition and that it was used for isolation. So what the f*** has got to do with me or my other staff of the ward! That brainless NM had to ask Nur, Lili and me to write a memo to explain how and why that patient insist on going back to A&E observation ward then to be in my ward while awaiting bed in the the main block. My NM is really a a** covering freak, every single issue that she encounter she will ask the respective person to type her a memo. She always believe in the memo writting system... So troublesome but we are writting our memos just to back herself up and to make it seemed it wasn't her fault except ours...
6am, patient in Rm 13 was breathless and Spo2 was 81% despite being on 4L/min oxygen. I increased the oxygen to 6L/min and the Spo2 only increased to 88%-89%. Not to forget patient was shivering vigouriously but no sign of fever. (By the way, he got admitted for severe pneumonia and in my opinion he is not fit for being in my ward if he can anytime de-sat.) Dr was called in to see him and suggested to give 50% O2, the Spo2 increased to 92-93% after 2 humidifier was used. The first one burst on me, making me all wet and the second one had a very piercing whistling noise so much so that I had to find the leakage and fix it.
When I thought I had finally settled to pass report at 7am...
7.10am, Rm2 patient decided to climb out of bed and landed on the floor. When Anqi, Bindu and me entered his room, all he said was 'ja-tok' (fall in malay). *shit* For all times he decided to climb out of bed and he has his right leg amputated!!!! Why can't patients use their brains and be more obedient to the fall precaution? Don't they know that they can be a pain in the a** when they fall just because of their stubborness? Not only do they injure themselves, they create more trouble for the nurses who takes care of them!
Anyway, we helped this patient back to bed, asked him why he climbed out of bed and check him for any physical injuries or any bruises. Luckily, no physical injuries and this patient didn't answer our questions for on why he decided to be 'superman with no leg'. The night and morning NM was called in to see this patient and to file for RMS...
It was until the night NM came did the the patient confessed that he actually didn't fall but climbed out of bed to off the TV, realized he was legless and held on tightly to the bed rails before sitting himself on the floor. He denied any fall even after repeated questioning. Stupid fellow!!!
So luckily, I need not enter RMS as he denies fall but had to write a long, long report just to protect myself and to cover my a**...
Finally went home at 8.30am in the morning, for the first time I have ever stayed in the ward after my night duty until so late. I am normally out of the ward by 7.40am latest... So freaking drained and tired...
Came home and slept for 3 hours and now I am up again... Hopefully, can rest well tonight. Night Duty finally over...

Birthday For Zhihao

Gave a birthday treat for my cousin who would be turning 15 on 20 July 2006. Brought him to Shatec Rosette for the dinner treat. Guess he was kind of uneasy about the setting and ambience. He told me that it was his first time dining in at such a 'high-class' restaurant. I replied that everyone has his/her first time in everything he/she does, so just take this dining experience to learn some fine dining skills like what was taught in school in social ettique classes.

He was very funny and of course fumbled every now and then but I guess it was the first time I ever dine with him alone after being his cousin for nearly 15 years. We also had a little chit-chat about school and his life.

From young, I had been taking care of him. I carried him to find his mummy everytime he cried after his afternoon nap when he was still a toddler. I fed him his meals whenever his mum got tired to chasing him around to feed him and I end up finishing his food when he said he was too full to eat up the rest of the few mouthfuls. In the end, he got all praises for finishing his food when I was actually the one who ate his un-finished food. I remembered since he was still a baby, I would save up my pocket money to buy him birthday and christmas presents. It has been a 'practice' since I was young until now. Sounds biased right? Yes, I also do agree that I very biased towards my this cousin and I do dot on him a lot. Just don't why...

Anyway, I watching him now as an adolescent I am also happy for him. At least, he did not turn out to be a 'beng-ster' or go astray and has a bright future planned out for him. I am glad that he turn out to someone unlike me, who almost became a 'lian' and cannot be bothered to study hard during my secondary school years as well as attract all the un-necessary attention that led me to no good.

Happy Birthday Zhihao! I am proud of you! Keep up all the good work to continue studying hard and be someone in the future that your parents would be proud of, ok? *winks*

My Cute Rascal

Nothing beats looking at this lil' rascal of mine...
Anyway, new pix uploaded... Go have at look ok? Haha!

She's Back...

'Old virgin' is back once again from her leave. That means from for the next 2 days, work would be like living hell... She will cause chaos and make all our lives difficult. How I wish she could be on leave permernantly or better still get his a$$ fired.

Going on night duty during the mass sparrow-hawk mock practice for bird flu. Heard it is nation-wide. Wonder how true and how Singaporeans will actually react to this mock practice? Will they shun us nurses again like during the SARS period? Will they disregard the practice or will they take the practice seriously and be all K.S?

Haven't found a new back-up job. Seems like no one wants to hire me... Nurses are not wanted in Singapore... So sad! Wonder how long more I can tolerate the nonsense of 'old virgin'. She tries to fault with me everytime I do the slightest mistake and want to 'counsel' me for being sick. Then if I am unwell and come to work, I cannot concentrate well and commit errors again, she will scold me yet again. Thus, take MC wrong, come to work also wrong. As if she is correct everytime. Wonder how she ever got promoted to being a NM and who was the stupid idiot who recommended her for the promotion. Eyes got stamp!

World Cup Finals 2006

Just waiting for the finals of the World Cup to start at 0150hrs. I will watching it without my Baku as he needs to wake up early for work later. Anyway, he is also kind of disappointed that his much supported team, Brazil, is not even in the 3rd place. Never thought that I would ever be such a fanatic to stay up and watch the finals between Italy and France. I am not a soccer fan by nature so I didn't expect myself to be sacrificing my sleep just to watch this final match.
Most of the people I know are rooting for Italy to win the cup, for me, I am guessing that France will win, afterall they did win the World Cup in 1998. So well, just wait and see...

10 July 2006 also marks me being married for 2 months already. So far, married life ain't as different as single life (before I married Baku). It is the same except for the wedding band on my left, fourth finger to 'remind' me of my status and promise made to Baku on 10 May 2006. I thought married life would be more exciting and romantic or maybe slightly different from being boy-girlfriend life. But I guess I am wrong. Few people told me that I am feeling this way maybe because Baku and I are haven't gone through the customary wedding and plus, we are still pretty much living with our parents, thus, there won't be any difference. Also it may also be due to the fact that we are not playing the roles of husband and wife as yet as we don't see the need to at the moment.

Looks like life will really be more exciting after 10 May 2008... Still then, I shall TKK and WLL...

Invincible

I don't have nerves of steel
I have a heart that feels
I may have cried a million tears but I wont drown
I let myself unfold
Gave you my hand to hold
You took me beyond where I could see
And then you let go of me...

Chorus:
I was damaged by the fall
Got the wind knocked out of me
To be standing here at all
I must be invincible
I thought that I would break
But now I have come to see
Something strong and beautiful
Inside of me
I must be invincible...

I dont have X-rays eyes
Don't have a heart so wise
How could I have known you'd let me down
If I had known that then
my eyes are wide open
I still believe I would've missed it

Ahh... its a blessing and a curse
Ahh... But you find out just what you've worth

Our Amazing Brains

O lny srmat poelpe can raed tihs. cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs psas it on !!

Drunk Nurses

Yes.. title says it all...
Kyreen cooked dinner of pasta with red wine beef sauce and 3 SNs got kind of drunk after eating the dinner. Mind you, we are still on duty eh. So u can imagine, SNs who had the effects of alcohol still working trying to concentrate. LOLx, poor EN Siti had to tolerate the nonsense of her 3 SNs.

I even told Siti that if there was an resus needed, she will have to do so herself as all the SNs had their mind 'clouded' with the effects of alcohol as much as that they wouldn't be rationalizing properly. Haha.

In conclusion, nice dinner and thank you Kyreen for the dinner but please no more red wine or even beer... Maybe Baileys...

Four Leaf Clover

I realized that nowadays, these four leaf clover are the latest craze together with Voodoo Dolls. I have a Voodoo Doll myself now, kindly sponsored by Missy Kyreen. She bought for me from Malaysia so that in case that 'old virgin' decide to irritate us (Kyreen, Lili and Me), our Voodoo Dolls will combine power and send a curse on 'old virgin'. Muah, haha! *evil grin*

Anyway, my next aim is to get this four leaf clover as it is said to bring luck and happiness. The four leaves represent Love, Hope, Faith and Luck. I will need all these elements recently.
Love: From the people around and close to me
Hope: To find a new working environment soon that lets me work office hours
Faith: To believe that my marriage would work out nicely and that I would be fertile enough to gave a junior in few years time
Luck: To ensure a safe distance from the nagging of 'old virgin' as well as to be lucky enough to find happiness in whatever I do in the future.

I also got myself a Nohohon Hello Kitty recently from Plaza Singapura. It is said to help one relax by looking at it nod its head repeatedly by using the solar energy. In my opinion, the Nohohon is actually good as it bores you instead when you look at it nodding non stop. However, my Nohonhon moves it head side-ways... Lolz, also good in boring me to snooze land whenever I suffer from insomnia. So if anyone who suffers from perpetual insomnia like me, I would suggest you to get the Nohohon and doze yourself to la-la land.