May The Best Man Win

I am not a very perfect nor a very pretty female. In fact, I am chubby and have more bad points than good points in me. Many people feel that I am more of an unlikeable person on the whole. In my secondary school years, I did feel that I am like one of the good looking person who can hook up few Ah Bengs whenever I feel like it. Finding a boyfriend to me was not a big issue. At that immatured age, I thought myself as a good catch (like shit!).

However, I grew older and began to see that I was behaving like a total slut. I was attracting all the wrong attention and getting myself into more trouble instead. It was like self-destruction. Sure, I had won my peers by having more ex-boyfriends and had entered more failed relationship than them. But what have I gained? Nothing. Just more hurt and heart-breaking relationships.

Then, along came my present husband. He showed me what security, care, concern, commitment, love, respect, treasure, cherish and lastly, what every woman should deserve in life- a guy whom she can trust her life in. He wasn't a perfect guy ain't and we did have our numerous of endless argument. He had an ego which he had 'let go' just to accommodate me. He turned his impatience into patience for me. He accepted all my flaws.

After 6 years of being together, I managed to give him my future. I managed to allow him to handle my life as my husband...

My Baku had won over the few guys whom I used to love. Most importantly, I allowed me to move on from my bitter past of one guy who had treasure me as much as I treasured him since I was 14. I finally moved on. I finally let go of my bitterness...

Thank you, Baku.

Studying Again For Baku

My Baku is going to 'upgrade' himself and gain more knowledge. He is going to enrol for a Degree course. However, I would need to help him with his future assignments as he would need to take many humanities topics. I offered to help him with geography, music, art appreciation, literature and economics. The rest of the subjects are up to him to help himself..

Thus, I would need to go back to Secondary 3 and Secondary 4 geography books again to revise my work. Wow... long time since I have touched those nasty geography books. Those who know me well when I was in secondary school years would know that detest geography and hated that subject as I had never excelled in it. But it was my 'O' level subject, so no choice, had to study it... Now, I am back to seek knowledge from those books and notes again. Anyway, I think he is studying world geography would is more like human geography...

I just hope I could help him as much as I can. May he pass his degree course...

Diarrhoea

I know this post maybe funny to some...
I am having diarrhoea since I visited Bangkok for my honeymoon, for 12days already. Although, I didn't take any road-side store food, always taking hotel food or restaurant food, I am still having this diarrhoea. It is only persistant during the morning and afternoon, by night, it would stop. I know it sounds weird but it is the truth...
Even Baku finds it amusing and think I 'chao keng' MC. How to 'chao keng' when you would need the toilet nearly every 30mins-1hour and your tummy churning with the sensation to pass motion... *upset*
Could anyone please believe me that I am not feeling well... (Luckily, NM Chan didn't call and scold me, otherwise, I would probably have screamed at her)... Off to toilet again... Bye Bye

Fragility Of Life

On Friday, I saved an old patient from the depths of death twice in one shift, only to allow her to pass away on Saturday morning at 0830hrs. Kind of upset to see her family grief for their loss, however, I had to remain 'professional' and could not shed even a tear for the patient.
I would say I was not very close to this patient but she has been in my ward for few months already. My colleagues and I had nursed from her comatose state to a more alert state of mind to her grave now.
So guess, when it is time for you to die, even the best medical doctor, surgeons, nurses or even defibrillator can't save you from returning back to the arms of God...

I Am Dead Beat

I AM FREAKING TIRED!
I AM FREAKING IRRITATED WITH THAT OLD VIRGIN!
I AM FREAKING FRUSTRATED WITH THAT OLD VIRGIN!
I AM FREAKING FED UP WITH THAT OLD VIRGIN!
I AM FREAKING PMS!
I AM FREAKING FRUSTRATED WITH SOMEONE'S BREAK UP!
I AM FREAKING STRESSED!
HELP!

Back To Work...

In another day, I would back to work. Wondering how different would the ward would be? What is the total number of patients now? How badly has NM Chan grilled my colleagues? How is Lili after her ROM also? Would anyone acknowledge my ROM also? How would NM Chan be when she sees me back in the ward? Would she also grill me for no rhyme or reason (she is famous for that)?

In the sense, I am happy to go back to work as I can re-socialize with my colleagues and nurse my patients again. Sad and relunctant as I don't wish to see that 'old virgin' and her stupid mood swings. Anxious on what my colleagues reaction would be to my new found status.

Anyway, once I go back to work, I won't have anymore leave scheduled for me for the rest of the year. I would also have to start pondering over resignations...

Back From Honeymoon

First and fore-most, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHUNGWOON! Yes, we are officially 23 years old now and I am also officically married for 3 days already. So far enjoying the bliss of marital life during the honeymoon.

Had my birthday yesterday. Bad experience in Bangkok with the hotel management. They are all so money-minded. 66 baht for calling our tour agent. 10 baht for re-confirmation of flight. 750 baht just to take the lift up to the highest floor of our hotel see the scenic view of Bangkok. Not giving seats on first come, first serve basis. Treating us as second class customers just because we don't stay in the first class levels (floor 50-75).

Anyway, I am back in one piece.. So I shan't complain much. Pretty tired but uploaded pictures of the ROM as promised. Kindly enjoy!

Finally I Am Married

Feel so xing fu... :) Off to Bangkok tomorrow!
By the way... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ON 12 MAY and TO MY GOD-MEI MEI, CHUNGWOON ON 13 MAY! WE ARE 23 YEARS OLD LIAOZ...

2 Days More...

Things done today:
1) Met Geraldine for buffet at Sakae Sushi Bishan
2) Her can of iced green tea had to be 'hammered' before it was opened
3) Had many many plates of sushi, fried tofu, salmon...
4) Forced to eat wasabi watermelon
5) Had manicure done
6) Visited Baku's God-parents and God-grandma at Pasir Ris.

*Thanks Geraldine for the treat and manicure*

Things to be done tomorrow (my last day of singlehood):
1) Meet Kyreen for pedicure
2) Then go for dinner
3) Meet Anqi for supper


Anyway, this would most likely be my last entry as a single woman so readers please kindly wait until I am back from Bangkok to upload any photos and to update my blog. Don't miss me and help me keep my blog cockroach and spider-web free ok? LOLx!

3 Days More

I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better, for worse, I will love you
With every beat if my heart

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on


From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you


From this moment as long as I liveI will love you,
I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on




P.S: Today, we finally got our new couple, queen-sized bed in Baku's room! Rejoice!

5 Days More

Things done today:
1) Went down to ROM to solemnize that the information provided are true, I am not married in another country or don't have any commitments in another country, I am at least 21 years of age and leastly that I am going to marry my Baku on my own free will
2) Polished our wedding bands and my engagement ring.
3) Applied for our new POSB card
4) Went to see Haha crabs and didn't buy as it wasn't as cute as I thought them to be
5) Ate Haagen Daz. (Sinful again)
6) Shopped around Junction 8
7) Proceeded down to Suntec for buffet seafood steamboat dinner (yes, I know. extrememly sinful)
8) Shopped around Suntec and got Baku a pair of sunglasses

Finally, I am back home. Tomorrow is election day...
Anyway, just to say "AT LAST MY WEDDING BAND FITS ME AGAIN! HOORAY!" Yes, I gained back my old weight again... Haha, should I actually be upset that I gained weight?? Ok, I am weird! I admit I am weird...

6 Days To ROM

My first ROM present from my dearest mei mei. Air freight from Australia. So sweet and nice of her. See how the 'bride' bear kisses the 'groom' bear? So romantic! Haha.
Thanks ger for the present... Really love it a lot... Especially the FF bear... My favourite stuff toy bear... Love love love it!

1 Week To ROM

The days are coming closer and nearer...
The level of anxiety increases...
The fear of unsuccessful ROMing heightens...

Praying hard that everything would fall into place nicely, without any mishaps and things would go smoothly..

Today, Kyreen asked me what I wanted as my birthday and ROM present. Without furthur thinking, I told her that I want for my this year birthday is a fulfilling and happy marriage to Baku. She then asked me if I had one wish for my ROM and birthday, what would it be? My answer: Happiness and peacefulness in my married life.
Perhaps, I am getting abit schizophrenic and paranoid about my ROM. What to do, I want to be my first and last marriage in my life. Do not wish to go through divorce and all the sadness of a unfulfilling marriage. Who wants a marriage that end up in divorce?? I am sure nobody enters the marriage hoping to get a divorce.

Praying hard that I would have a fulfilling marriage with Baku...

9 Days More

Ok...
Settled with Baku's contact lens, selected the restaurant and have already booked it.
Bought 6 mask for daily usage until ROM day. Haha, want to be a pretty bride by then, so crossing my fingers and praying hard that nothing would ruin that day of ours.
Had a small arguement with Baku today about him always forgetting instructions. When he plays game, his mind is so focus on the game that whatever instructions you tell him would just be like talking to a wall. Sure, he would promise to follow that instuctions but the very next day, he would just clean forget it. He would even deny that you even gave him the instructions. *sigh* GUYS!