Summary

Days @ Work:
1) Peaceful (No one to nag at us non-stop)
2) Tiring (Ward 12 is opened and quite a number of admissions daily)
3) Irritating (Due to some V.I.P who thinks that she is so big just because she works in MOH)
4) Busy (Many many patients and countless of things to be done daily)
5) Upsetting (Lots of back-stabbing happening these days with our porters)
6) Wish to take MC (Feel so burned out daily, especially after work)

Days Of Luv Life:
1) Baku is ill = less time together
2) Baku going to study = less time together
3) I am also falling ill soon = less time together


Rants:
1) No potential good job offer
2) Few of my other colleagues are leaving soon
3) My poor Baku is down with serious URTI symptoms (NOT BIRD FLU eh)
4) My mei mei has gone through another operation so cannot go out with her until probably few weeks later. She and I has so many unfulfilled stuff to do together...
5) NM Chan is coming back to irritate us next week
6) I need a BREAK from work...

New 'Promotion' For Our Nursing Manager

Congratulations to our Nursing Manager of ward 11! She has managed to obtain a new title in our ward. I bet her new designation is the first in our hospital.
How she got her new promotion comes as no surprise. Her dedication to our ward to stay in the ward from 0745hrs to 2300hrs, her endless nagging on how we should follow her way to carry out our duties, her constant paranoid behaviour on cleanliness of our ward, her tactful words chosen when she decides to scold us for trivia matters or sometimes matter that ain't even our faults and last for not least, for being such a nice soul to take advantage of her authorities to manipulate us to do stuff that is against the rules of moral.
As you can see how 'likeable' she is in our ward and how much we 'love' as well as 'appreciate' her efforts that we decided to give her the one and only title in our hospital.
Once again, congratulations NM Chan. Have a nice one week of vacation ahead! We will MISS you.

Untitled

I have already called that SNM to cancel my application to go to the SOC. Somehow, I feel weird. I feel like perhaps I should stay in shift work until a better opportunity comes knocking on the door. Although, NM Chan is quite a pain in the a** and I really wish to put super glue to her mouth at times but guess, I am afterall comfortable with the colleagues at Ward 11/12.
Anyway, NM Chan would be on 3 weeks leave and that means no nagging nor irritating voice to piss me off for the next 3 weeks. But, I am just wondering if that Kutti (another arrogant SNM) would be coming down to rule our ward since our ward would only left with our SSN Nazeemah to manage. If that happens, I would pity our SSN cause Kutti is another pain in the a**. *sigh* Why do all NM and SNM have to be such hard to please? Why do they always have to put this kind of air in their attitude like as if they are the kings and queens?
I would be meeting Geraldine later. Been a long while since I last met up with her... So I got to go and get ready to go out. *CYAzz*

Sweet Revenge

It does not pay to be proud, arrogant and to talk without using your brains, especially when you are of a high ranking position.
Today, Baku fought back for me and called Quality Service to complain about that SNM that made my life at the interview yesterday miserable. He gave her a good scolding and also helped me to ventilate my frustrations with her irrelevant questions. He also demanded that she apologized to me personally.
Although, she did cower down to apologize to me and at least I don't feel so upset anymore but I just feel why does people have to be so mean towards me? Is it that I portray myself as a person who is easily bullied or a simple person for people to scold? Do they have to wait until I get frustrated and fight back before they realized that they had did something wrong?
By the way, many nice people in Ward 11 is leaving soon... So sad! Wish I could also leave too. Why haven't any company reply me?
I think I will call that SNM tomorrow and say I reject the SOC job already. Don't feel good working for such brainless SNM. I may be desperate for a stable office hours job but no way am I going to let myself suffer under poor management again...
Praying that I would a happier person and other job opportunities will come knocking soon...

Interview Today

Went to the SOC for my interview for transfer. It didn't go as well as I hoped for. Instead, of 'promoting' the SOC job, the two Nursing Managers gave lots of disadvantage of being a SOC nurse. They kept saying that the job is tiring and it is not as easy as many people think it is. They even said I wouldn't be the dutiful wife and daughter-in law I wish to be. So discouraging! They also picked on my BMI and over-weight issue. So mean!

Looks like I am stuck at Ward 11 under that nagging 'old virgin'. If I don't get transferred, I think she is more than happy. From the way, her face turned black when I told her I had to go to SOC for my interview, I can tell she is unwilling to let me go. She also seemed unhappy that the SOC processed my request to transfer out so fast. Sometimes, I really don't know if she treasures my presence or does she not even bother. But if I were to say she doesn't care about my presence, then why would her mood immediately change when I told her that I had to go for my interview. If I were to say she treasures my efforts and stuff that I do, then why would she like be so mean to me towards me at times and even say words to hurt my colleagues and me? I really don't know. I really wish she would be more easier to understand. I wish she would could prove to me her point if I am really wanted.

Speaking of being wanted or not... It sets me thinking that if I am that competent and if I am really that good a nurse, then why is it that CGH, KKH and even the polyclinics all are not responding to my resume submission? If I am that of an experience nurse, then why I am not wanted by the above places? I really feel so disappointed, so confused...

Deep down I know I will miss Ward 11 colleagues if I leave, however, whenever that 'old virgin' starts her mean words and nagging, I really wish to slap her face and say 'I QUIT!'...

*sad*

Silent Hill

Watched Silent Hill today. Not a very nice show. Not as scary as I thought it would be. Actually, it is more of gruesome and disgusting, especially the part when the 'devil' torn out the woman's guts alive and threw it at the main character. Not to forget, how they torched the policewoman alive too. Gross!
Anyway, this is so lame!

I much prefer other horror movies. This one like no kick!

Garfield Part 2

Post night duty today. Slept for about 4 hours then went out to 'jalan-jalan' with Baku around Tampines area.
Watched 'Garfield Part 2'. Very funny... This cat is so cute and cool!
Anyway, my parents are finally back in Singapore after their trip to Guangzhou. They are extremely 'man zhan'. Guess they are tired and especially my mum still have to do some household chores before she goes back to work tomorrow. Dad is also kind of bad mood too. Don't know why. They like very anti-social...

I Survived!

BONDS ENDS TODAY!
FREEDOM!
NO MORE WORRIES ABOUT BREAKING OF BOND AND PAYING THE LIQUIDATED DAMAGES!
CONGRATULATIONS TO MYSELF FOR TAKING ALL THE S**T FROM THEM AND STILL MANAGE TO SURVIVE FOR 3 YEARS BEING TREATED LIKE DIRT!

"NAH NAH NAH NAH,
NAH NAH NAH NAH
HEY HEY HEY,
GOODBYE...''

Lurvin' It!

Can't imagine that I would be saying this one day: I ENJOY COOKING 4 MY BAKU!

Haha, as you know my parents ain't home these days and I have to settle Baku's dinner daily as he has been staying over my place for the past few days. Thus, I have been cracking my brains thinking what to cook for him. Not that I want to impress him with my cooking but it has been a long time since I last did meal planning. That was like 7 years back since my F&N meal planning. It is actually quite tedious looking into the fridge and thinking what to cook according with is available in the fridge. Those who did F&N would understand what I mean.

Anyway, I am still enjoying 'marketing' for food to cook. What I cook is just a simple meal but when I see Baku savour the food and even ask for more rice, I am like so glad that at least someone does appreciate my cooking. LOLx.

Ok, I know if my mei, Geraldine, if she is reading this entry, she would be laughing her pants off that I am actually trying to be like a 'house-fly' and cooking for a husband his meals. I mean, it is so not me. But I am doing so. Haha... in fact, I do feel like a housewife for once...

Cooking Tonight!

My parents had left yesterday morning for their holidays. That means, I have the whole house to myself. Hurray!
Anyway, I went back to work today and submitted my self-nomination form for transfer of department to SOC or OGC where I can get my office hours job. NM Chan told me that it may be a long wait, moreover, she is relunctant to 'release' me unless she can get a replacement for me. So looks like I am very much 'wanted' in my ward. *Sigh*
Cooking for Baku tonight. Haha, first time cooking for him a meal as a wife. Hope he would enjoy it. He better do appreciate the effort. Afterall, I am actually tired from today's morning shift. Woke up at around 0550hrs for work today.

Menu (Simple home-cooked food, nothing fantastic):
1) Rice
2) Fried Mushroom with Pacific Clams
3) Steamed Promfret
4) Fried Onion Omelette

1 Month Of Being Married & Enjoying It

Today marks me being married for 1 month already. During this very short period, but some stuff happened, so it is not exactly honeymoon period as some would call it... We did have some arguements within this 1 month... However, all that is settled.

Back to work tomorrow. Sianz... I already voiced out to NM Chan that I want to fill up the self-nomination form for a transfer out when I get back to work. She reminded me that the position for office hours is very hard to come by and I not necessarily would get the position. She also said that I may have to wait for quite a long time. Thus, my decision is either to wait for CGH, KKH or Polyclinic to reply to me or wait for SGH to allow my transfer. First come, first serve. Just praying hard that my wish for 8-5pm would come true soon...

Colonoscope results (thankfully) is normal and nothing bad or serious. Have to see doctor next month. Given medications for the time being.

Colonoscope In 9 Hours

Fell in love with few songs recently... Here is the lyrics to one of the songs...
Maybe, it's me, maybe i bore u
No no, it's my fault, cos i can't afford u
Maybe baby, puffy, jay z would all be better for u
Cos all i can do is luv u
Baby when i used to luv u
Theres' nothing that i wouldn't do
I went thru the fire for you, do anything you asked me to
But i tired of livin this lie
It's getting harder to justify
Realised that i just don't luv u
Not like i used to
La la la la la la
Maybe, i should rob somebody
So we could, live like whitney and bobby
It's probably my fault, my bad, my loss
But u are, above cost
Cos all i could do was luv u
Baby when i used to luv u, theres' nothing that i wouldn't do
I went thru the fire for you, do anything you asked me to
But i'm tired of living this lie
It's getting harder to justify
Realised that i just don't luv u
Not like i used to
Hola hola hola
Hola hola hola
Do you remember when i used to luv u
Baby no not any more, luv u
Ooohhhh, I luv u
And you're gonna miss me now
Baby when i used to luv u
There's nothing that i wouldn't do,
I went thru the fire for u, and i'm not gonna play the fool
No i can't live this life, and i can't justify, and i can't make up my life
Cos i don't luv u
Not like i used to do
Hola hola hola
Hola hola hola
Oh i used to luv u
Oh i used to luv u
Oh but I don't luv u
Oh but I don't luv u
Oh but you're gonna miss me now
Baby when i used to luv u, theres' nothing that i wouldn't do
I went thru the fire for you, do anything you asked me to
But i'm tired of living this lie
It's getting harder to justify
Realised that i just don't luv u
Not like i used to
la la la la la la
Oh i used to luv u
Oh i used to luv u
Oh but I don't luv u
Oh but I don't luv u Oh but you're gonna miss me now
Oh but I don't luv uuuuuuuuuuu

Expressed how i feel about someone. Perhaps he doesn't care anymore! What the heck! Haha!

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I am one step nearer to saying good bye to SGH soon. Have already submitted my resume to CGH, Singhealth Polyclinics and KKH. Guess, I am pretty mean today by taking 2 days of MC to settle my mind and be more determine to leave behind some fond memories of being a SGH staff. Of course, I will miss few close people who helped me along my 'growing' process of being a newly-grad blur blur staff nurse to currently what I am now with adequate skills to 'survive' all the ups and downs of my career with SGH.

I know I am already in NM Chan's book of blacklisting recently, especially, when I made numerous of mistakes for the past few months. Not to forget, my heck care attitude towards her now. Plus, I guess she already know that I have the potential to quarrel with her or even show her absolute no respect if she potentially makes really mad at her one fine day. Lastly, during my performace appraisal, she did say that I have an attitude problem and I rebuked her for that statement until she had to ask me to shut up.

In the sense, I am now just praying that my resume would be seen, read and get me hired soon enough for me to tender my resignation to SGH soon. But at the same time, I am really going to miss certain people who had made my journey much easier and had encouraged me to be who I am today.

Wondering if I should await the bonus pay out in July before saying my good-byes??? Can I tahan that long??? Hmm... I dunno... We will just see how things go.

Awaiting Bond To End

12 days more before my bond ends.
12 days more before I can throw my temper at that 'old virgin'.
12 days more before I can throw in my resignation letter.
I am enthusiatic about resigning, but I still want the July bonus. Afterall, I have work so hard for this year, fell ill, sacrificed my health, sacrificed my ear drums to hear her nagging 24/7.
I am eager to leave and tender my resignation letter, however, I don't see any companies that matches my criteria or expectations.
I am more than happy to leave this dreaded working place, but I will miss some of my colleagues whom I can get along very well with.
I know this company doesn't treasure my presence and don't acknowledge my contributions. It only targets my weakness and harps on stuff that is trivia. It doesn't see me as a whole, it just sees the flaws.
Perhaps, I am not meant to work rotating shifts and the stress level of not having sufficient rest regularly as I noticed that it has taken toll on my health status since I started working 3 years ago.
Perhaps, my 'eight-characters' don't match with this company as I realized that for the past 3 years, I was never really happy working. I had supervisors whose management skills and attitude towards their subordinates are horrible.
I am dreading my feet to work daily. Just thinking of her endless nagging, turns me off. Just thinking of her face, makes me sick...
Can someone please save me and help me out of this misery... God please bless me to find another job opportunity better than my current job...

Day Out Today

1145hrs: Met Kyreen for lunch at Compasspoint. Had Starbucks coffee then proceeded to Swensens for lunch
1600hrs: Met up with Anqi for 'gossip' session at Bugis. Sat at Mos Burger gossiping about work stuff, NM Chan and horrible jokes about her. Almost witnessed a guy proposing to his annoyed girlfriend, who probably didn't think Mos Burger was the best place for proposal.
1800hrs: Went down to Suntec after Anqi left us for Orchard. Ate dinner at Country Manna, had my favourite, Oxtail Stew while Kyreen had pizza. Kyreen had a taste of my 'Moo-tail' (Geraldine's phrase) and fell in love with it immediately. Haha, looks like she would go back for their Oxtail Stew next time. Asked her to try the tendon and joint part of the vertebrae but she flatly refused. Maybe that was too much a challenge for her.
1930hrs: Left Suntec as Kyreen hadto meet her boyfriend for movie at Plaza Singapura. I didn't want to be 'light-bulb' so here I am at Baku's place blogging.

Extra information: Bumped into Ivan at City Hall MRT in the afternoon and bumped into Wenshan in the evening at City Link Mall.