Definations... My Own

Love is... a great gamble, either you win big or lose like there's no tomorrow
Love is... a game, learn to play it well or fail real badly
Love is... pain when it fails
Love is... euphoria when it succeeds
Love is... seeing that someone asleep and wanting to kiss him on his forehead
Love is... being 'disturbed' by that someone snoring and wanting to just cover his head with another pillow instead of issuing a slap
Love is... willing to entrust the rest of your life to marry him/her
Love is... wondering if that someone is doing well at that every minute you are thinking of him/her
Love is... curiousity to find out what that someone is up to at that every second you are thinking of him/her
Love is... babbling nonsense like a child and laughing together at the childishness
Love is... knowing that you can live without that someone but still decide not to even give it a try
Love is... trying your best not to sms or call that someone but still find other ways to communicate with him/her
Love is... pure enjoyment of 'irritating' and 'disturbing' that someone seeing the expression of exasperation written all over his/her face
Love is... Baku

Lunar New Year

Pig Overview:
The Pig is the last of the 12 signs, so maybe it should not come as a surprise that the Pig just can't catch a break. True it's your year, but unfortunately there are many unlucky stars in your palace. That 49% rating is an average that masks the fact you are likely to have some very good and bad luck this year.
You only have two extremely good months this year, although you have many good to very good ones. You may not have a lot of great opportunities, but there should be plenty of decent ones. Water -- your fixed element -- and Fire spell disaster, so don't take any unnecessary risks.

Pig Rating
49% (6 favorable and 6 unfavorable months)

Pig Career
Steady progress is your most likely outcome. Those Pigs in academia, however, could really shine.

Pig Relationships
It's a wonderful time for family, including a new addition. Your love life should show some improvement. Certainly your passions are going to be aroused. The single Pig is likely to find a new love interest.

Pig Health
Alas, Fire and Water (your fixed element) spell disaster. Actually we're not talking disaster here, but we are talking problems. Either an existing condition is likely to worsen, or you could find yourself with a new issue. Stress and high blood pressure are two possible candidates.

Pig Wealth
It's ironic that the Pig brings luck to many other signs but not to itself. You're not really in danger of a big loss, but don't buy any lottery tickets, either.

Happy Valentines' Day... 2 Myself :(

Was woken by Baku's sms to call him. I did and was greeted with an excited and stern voice of him saying he was going to meet someone coming this Friday, someone I dread, someone I would never want to remember, someone who had caused me distress, someone who I quite terrified of and lastly someone who pestered my life for the past 3 years. Good thing is that it may finally come to an end. However, it may also not end there and then, it may proceed to a lawsuit (which I have always wanted to avoid). I don't want to drag it any further but as usual Baku stubbornly wants to take matters in his own hands. No matter how I have tried to pacify him to let the matter rest, he is still as hard-headed to pursue it to the end. He would never understand how much I would really want to end this matter as low profile as possible. A brand new year is coming up and I really wish that life would be more better without any lawsuits or even disturbance from that guy. However, Baku will never listen to me when it comes to such matters. He is determine to have his way and when that mindset of his there, no one can stop him, not even if the sky fell down on him. *sigh* Looks like the year of the Boar is really not a good year for me. Poor me...
My sprained ankle has kind of got better after 2 days of MC and back to work again for me today. Would be spending my Valentines' Day limping around the clinic working my a$$ off. Thankfully, I could comfort myself by telling myself that I already had a celebration last Saturday as a replacement for today.
I am a very depressive mood today... I guess Baku has even forgotten that it is Valentines' Day today, in his mind is just how to lash back at that someone and take his 'revenge' by bring that person to court. Why do past events have to catch up on me at all the wrong times. Why can't the past be the past and not to brought to the present or the future... No wonder it is called history (his-story).

Butterfly Kisses

One of my favourite song. Very touching that brings tears to my eye...

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven,
and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
she talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank God for all of the joy in my life,
But most of all, for...
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, daddy, but I should try."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma
a little more everyday.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup,from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world.
But I remember...
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy,
But if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise, and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking,
and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over.... and gave me....
Butterfly kisses, with her mama there
Sticking little flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, daddy, it's just about time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, daddy?"
"Daddy, don't cry."
With all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses

I couldn't ask God for more, man, this is what love is
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses

11 Feb 2007

Pictures of yesterday's dinner uploaded. Ok, it is kind of confirmed that the wedding dinner banquet would be held at Changi Village Hotel, provided that the date is still open for us to book.

Isn't the Lilies a beauty? Yes, it is very nicely done. However, I am aiming for Calla Lilies for my wedding day, more elegant and prettier.

Anyway, got a surprise card from Baku. Thought that he had forgotten about the 9mths anniversary but no, he proved that he hadn't with the card. Keke...

Advanced Valentines' Day

Sadly, I would be working evening shift on 14 Feb, thus, decided to bring V.day celebrations forward and at Changi Village Hotel. It would also be a good time to 'check-out' the place and its environment for our future customary wedding banquet in 2008. So far, the photos shown on magazines as well as on the website looks pretty impressive: simple but yet elegant. Hence, got to see the place for ourselves.
Anyway, tomorrow marks 9 months into my ROM life. Not as fast as I thought it would be. Life is still as same as pre-ROM so I don't feel anything different as a ROM-ed woman. Baku says it is a good sign. His logic is that at least I have no stress about being ROM-ed and that I have still leading a normal life after ROM. He and his nonsense...
Tomorrow is also Kyreen's birthday... Happy birthday girl... Hope you will like the present that I have got for you. If you are reading this blog early then here is a reminder to be home on tomorrow. Haha...

Updates...

06022007:
1) Had my hair done, I highlighted my hair bronze, dyed the rest brown and did some kind of hair treatment at my cousin's salon by SGD 99. Yes, very cheap!
2) Indulged in my Java Chip Fraccupino from Starbucks. Long time since I last touched it.

07022007:
1) Had a bad day
2) Kanna complaint by a patient and some delivery-man.
3) Had a good talk to Sharon and understood that my company also has 'betrayals' and that not all my colleagues are trustable.
4) Found out someone is married, not sure if really married or just put for fun but it still wrenches my heart
5) Feel like crying... Just feel so vulnerable right now. Wanna cry but no tears... No tears to flow down my cheeks...

Early Birthday Celebrations

Went out dinner with my parents yesterday evening for a birthday celebration for my mum at Shatec. Baku and I split the bill to treat my mum as her birthday is around the corner and next week, Baku and I won't be free to celebrate it for her.

My dad said that her birthday present was the newly bought car that he had purchased and 'arrived' on 1st Feb. Haha, as if my mum was going to happy with that... The car is literally his to drive and moreover, my mum's driving skills are pretty kayu to be on the streets for more than half an hour.

Anyway, after dinner, we proceeded to Parkway Parade to do some shopping and guess what? I found a tube of PEPPERMINT mask on sale at Isetan there. Of course I purchase it, how could I ever resist peppermint!!! Not to forget, I also bought peppermint ice cream from Scoops there. LOL! In case and for those who still don't know, I AM A TRUE BLUE PEPPERMINT LOVER TO THE MAX!!!

Much later, we went grocery shopping at Giant and I met CW + her parents there too. Such a small world! Heehee...

Went home to try the peppermint mask and as usual, it wasn't mint enough but I was satisfied with a fact of having found a peppermint mask at last. I thought that thing will never exist. I mean, not many ladies or men would enjoy peppermint feeling on their faces for more than 15mins. As for me, I simply love it. It would be nice if the world has peppermint of shampoo (of course must be good one, not some silly brand), moisturising body scrub (also not some silly brand), extra minty colgate, extreme mint facial wash, etc... Lovely! However, Baku doesn't really enjoy mint the way I do. In fact, friends always complain that I take too much mint for a normal person's preference and one such person is Kyreen. She always say too much when I complain it isn't minty enough. *sigh* Maybe I am abnormal... :)

Back to work tomorrow as morning shift. Praying that I would be able to pass my probation by March... Anti-climax just thinking of how I didn't make it through my probation because of some lame reason which I am had taken for granted in the first place... My fault, too bad.

Webby of my facial mask: http://www.skinfood.sg/home.html

Failed

I didn't pass through my probation due to certain reason. Next review in March. Too upset to comment much...