Life In KKH

My Latest Craze... Sour But Nice

Myself at work in the Chemotherapy Room.

So far, I am happy at work. Learnt much and been feeling very much a part of the GCC 'family'. Blend in pretty well but have yet to really touch the chemotherapy part of my job. The manager says she will allow me to do so once she feels I am ready. Completed my venepuncture checklist yesterday quite smoothly.
Got my pay check from Northern Hope today: so miserable... not as much as I thought it would be.
=(

1st Week At KKH

Been neglecting the internet since I started working at KKH. This is due to the fact I work from 8.30am-6pm from Monday to Friday. Thus, I wake up at 7am and get home at around 7pm. By the time I reach back, I am too tired to go online to surf. So the moment I reach back home, I would rather eat dinner and laze around watching TV. Heehee, very lazy hor?
Anyway, the work load is quite hectic but fun interacting with those aunties who get cancer. They gave me a very different perspective to having cancer. I had always had this thinking that those with cancer are a depressive lot of people and I have to ve extra sensitive towards their needs. However, these aunties aren't as depressed as I thought and they often joke with you too. They are also very positive about the chemotherapy. Although the chemotherapy hours are long, they make use of the time to chit chat as well as share knowledge with one another on what to eat, how to go out without others knowing that they have cancer, what to do to kill time while at home, etc... I also learn a lot of stuff from them also.
The stuff I also have to do is also overwhelming, especially when I have no experience in chemotherapy and no oncology training. The drugs all seem kind of foreign to me. The protocols are also a handful... So stressful...
Now down with tonsillitis and just recovered from fever yesterday. Wanted to work but my body just gave way to the fever making me so weak. There goes my one day of pay. So sad... Pray that I won't fall sick anymore. Always be religiously taking all the cooling stuff and vitamin C, still can fall sick. Haiz...

KKH Life Starts Tomorrow!!!

Beginning a new life in KKH from tomorrow onwards. Lots of uncertainities, anxiety and feeling kind of excited as well as dreading too. When I went down to collect my uniform last week, I dropped by the clinic and witness the chaotic as well as busy life of the clinic. Kind of unsure if I would be able to adapt back to such hectic life again... Wish me well...
On the lighter side of things, Baku and I went to Cathy Cineleisure to watch "Fantastic 4- Rise Of The Silver Surfer". Nice story line, a bit of comedy and romance all in one. Not as bad and as dreadful as I imagined it to be.

Something I Stumbled On...

Your Birthdate: May 12

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone. Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them. Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 4 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1 You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

Hmmz, 4 true loves that I have... Quite true!
Badly heartbroken once... Yes, weirdly true...
But Baku ain't born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st or 30th of the month... How? Die lah!

3 days Left

3 days left in Northern Hope... this past week has been crazy at Northern Hope. Busy to the maximum...
5 days left to go KKH... collecting my uniforms later... going to KKH leaves me with mixed emotions... Happy yet upset that I am leaving Northern Hope... Excited yet uncertain if I am making the right choice...

The feeling of missing someone is like an ocean that never ends
It finally meets up with the sky at the horizon
If our love has been continuing long enough, we shall see happiness too
The promises you gave seem like butterflies
It is flies beautifully, and then vanished after circling
But I believe the promises you gave me
Will like spring that always comes
I am always bringing the smile of your love with me
I will continue searching for the beauty that I’ve lost along the way
When tears have accidentally fallen down the corner of the mouth
I’ll wipe it off using my hand which you’ve held before
I never stop my journey even if there are more sceneries
I look only for the beauty that I’ve lost
Some people can’t tell how good it is
But no one can substitute it
In beginning, from the very first second
Some things are meant to go on forever
Although fate loves play jokes on us
The true heart will meet up with true heart
I am always bringing the smile of your love with me
I am searching for the beauty that I’ve lost along the way
When tears have accidentally fallen down the corner of the mouth
I’ll wipe it off using my hand which you’ve held before ...

10 June 2007

10 June 2007:
-One year and one month anniversary (he forgot, i remember)
- 6 days more in Northern Hope
- 8 days more to KKH
- 5 days more to someone's birthday (cannot be bothered though)
- Went shopping at Suntec and Marina Square
- Bought 2 jeans at SGD 19 each (G.S.S, of course low prices!)
- Totally spent around SGD 90 on 1 Hello Kitty handphone accessory, 2 pair jeans, dinner at Kenny Rogers, mint ice cream from Ben & Jerry, java chip fraccuppino at Starbucks and cab home.

触电

风走在我们前面
甩裙摆画著圆圈花美得兴高采烈
那香味有点阴险你在我旁边的旁边
但影子却肩碰肩偷看一眼
你的唇边是不是也有笑意明显
明明是昨天的事情
怎麼今天我还在经历
一丁点回忆都能惊天又动地
想问个愚蠢问题
我们再这样下去你猜会走到哪里
但请你不要太快揭开还沉默的情话
先让我多著急一下再终於等到解答
太容易的爱故事就不耐人回味啦像
这样触电 就够我快乐熔化
我们就耐心培养萌芽不要急著开花
反正有长长的日记等我们去填满它
在被全世界发现以前先愉快装傻
就这样触电 一直甜蜜触电 直到爆炸
像一年四个季节 都被你变成夏天我才会在你面前
总是被晒红了脸像一百万个秋千
在我心里面叛变被你指尖 碰到指尖
我瞬间就被荡到天边

Sinking Into Depression

I feel so miserable... Help!
I think I am sinking into depression soon... Help!

Losing It

Today, something he did to jolt me back to reality that I really am losing grip and control over him as well as his personal life. I realized that I am such a failure to myself to be deceiving myself that he and I would be able to share every single secrets of our life. Guess I was wrong...
Not that I want be a over-ruling or possessiveness wife. But when we were still in the BGR stage, we had no secrets, nothing hidden from each other... I even know his bank PIN, account number, how much assets he has.
Today, I realized that he is much richer than his past self and I was thought he was still the poor chap who has no secret hidden from me... No, I was wrong... I thought I knew everything about him and his life... No, I was wrong... I thought as his wife, he had the rights to know my assets as much as I know his... No, I was wrong... Dead wrong!
Today, I learn a big lesson. From now, I will lead my own personal stuff, keep my own secrets, shut him out of my private life, be more selfish and self-centred. I would be forced to be someone liked my mother. More individualistic, more stronger. I wouldn't be so silly to presume that he is the same person that I had married one year ago. I wouldn't be hoping for him to share his secret life with me anymore. I shall be more defensive, more protective of myself, more wiser... So sad... Things had to end up this way... Looks like there is more to learn day by day. Maybe I will learn until one day I realize that I am numb towards him and I don't love him anymore. *sigh*

Counting Down...

14 days left in Northern Hope...
16 days more before I start new job, new setting, new expectations and new stuff to learn.
Currently for the past few days been trying to read through my lecture notes to refresh my memories on what was learnt in school. Haha, somemore that time the module was not an examination topic, so was kind so slack with it. Thanks goodness have some experience when I was in SGH.
Next week would be the farewell BBQ that would held at my house...
Wish I would blog more stuff, but my brain is now affected by the Procodin I had taken half an hour ago for my cough... Haha... brain 80% shut down...