Invisible Target

In the show, Nicholas Tse's side view resembles someone I know who used to have a goatie... Too bad I can't find the picture of the side view, thus, have to make do with this black and white front view.

Anyway, nice show... Long though for a chinese film...

So Sick...

I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin'
You were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs
So sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
You said you loved me
Why aint you here?
Leave me alone
Stupid love songs
Don't make me think about his smile

Love ain't here anymore
Love ain't here anymore
It's gone away, to a town called yesterday
Love ain't here anymore

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

I feel the agonizing pain
As it tears my heart apart
It seems it will never end
Living inside for eternity
Will it ever end?
Wise men say that time
Is the physician of a broken heart
But the scars that are left behind
Are there forever
For me to feel, again and again

When You Say You Love Me

You laugh like you're really entertained
And you smile like it's your favorite game
I know everybody here wants to hold you
I know what it's like, 'cause I feel the same
When you look in my eyes, there's a part of me that's still afraid
And when you say you love me do you mean it?
Should I believe the magic in your eyes?
I will wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me like you mean it
All I wanna do it make you mine
I've been hurt way too many times
And I know that the timings not right
It's not that I don't really like the attention
Are you really sincere?
Is this just something that you do?
Again and again and again
I've been hurt my friend till the end
You know I've been high I've been low
I got no place left to go
Again and again and again will this search ever end?
And when you say you love me do you mean it?
Should I believe the magic in your eyes?
I will wait until the end of time
To hear you say you love me, do you mean it?
Come on baby say you love me

I believed you, but you lied
I gave you my love and trust
In the end, you changed
I sacrificed my future to be with you
Now you have ruined you
I made a gamble to be happy with you
Now I have lost this game
I was fooled yet again by you
Yet I am still foolishly in love with you,
Willing to wait for the day to come
That I'll see and feel the same bliss from you
Till the day I die

1 Month Old (Updated On 19/7)

Today marks:
1) 1 month in KKH as SN I
2) OAS course has ended, back to GCC tomorrow
3) Recieved my first appreciation gift from a patient who completed her chemotherapy. I had only rendered my service to her twice and she remembered me. She bought 3 table top flower arrangements (as shown) for the 3 chemotherapy nurse and my preceptor told me about me. I am so touched that someone's life has been better under my care. It's these small gestures that patients make that makes me melt as well as feel less frustrated with the stress and set-backs of being a nurse.

4) Baku bought me CK Summer as a surprise gift last night. So nice of him to have bought it for me knowing that I simply love the smell of its every version since it was created from 2004 but yet always never bought it. Thank you so much, Baku. Thanks for being proud of me and 'rewarding' me with this gift.

Nice Lyrics... By Darren Hayes

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
I must say, a little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
'Cause I believe that we can work things out

I thought I had all the answers
Never giving in
But baby I was wrong
I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
And if we ever said we'll never be together
and we ended it with goodbye
I don't know what I'd do
You know I've been lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
but all I know is
Im lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues?
Baby i'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You know that you're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my bed's so cold at night
I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
No I'm not too proud to say

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever said we'll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
I don't know what I'd do
You know I've been lost without you

I keep trying to find my way
And all I know isI'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you
If I could only hold you now
Make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face

Oh

All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side
If we ever said we'll never be together
and we ended with goodbye
I don't know what I'd do
You know I've been lost without you

Simple

Changed my blog layout to something simple.
New me... wants to be down to earth and no more living in my own dreamland as if I am a princess and have already given up hope on becoming one in the future. No matter how and what I become, I will forever be not blessed to being treated like a princess. I will never be respected in his eyes, I will always be this sickly woman who would take mc at the slightest discomfort, I will forever be looked down upon by him and he will have ruling over my life and my happiness.
Whatever! I totally surrender and acknowledge my ill fate...

10 July 2007

1) He forgot again as usual or perhaps simply boh chup already, but I remembered and still do care about it.
2) I feel like a total incompetent SN... A skill that I used to practice in SGH has been lost and I need that skill to pass my probation at KKH.
3) CW is again troubled with BGR issues... Poor girl...

Bitter Rants

It is weird that I should also digested the facts that I would be having my customary wedding held in 2009 instead of 2008, however, guess I have not succeeded in it although I have been calmly telling others that my customary wedding would be in 2009. Everytime, I see or get reminded any weddings, I would feel very upset and bitter deep down in my heart. Not upset or bitter for the couple getting married, but more of for myself. I seem to feel like I am being rejected and not of marriageable material. I mean if he really loves me so much, wouldn't he want me to be his wife as soon as possible, afterall, the downpayment for our wedding package for bridal studio has been paid... He says his studies are in the way but we have already discussed that issue even before he started his studies and he did say it wouldn't hinder us in anyway. Now it did! Trying to be positive and understand towards him but deep down, I feel otherwise. Haiz...just hope 10 May 2009 would be the final date and no more postponing of it. I can't take anymore negative changes...
People say the first 5 years of marriage is hard, my marriage is only 1 year old, still long way to go. Pray that we will survive the hardship until our hair turns grey or white.
Anyway, on a more cheery note, I bought myself a new handphone on Thursday. Sony Ericsson 810i. Cost about nearly SGD 500. Luckily, the government gave the GST offset package in time to cover some of the cost. Heehee... It is nice and I have been aiming it since last month when it first came out.

Visit To Goat Farm

My visit to the Goat Farm at Lim Chu Kang on Saturday with my dad, 2 cousins and grandmother...

Current Song That I Like

風走在我門前面 甩裙擺畫著圓圈

花美得興高採烈 那香味有點陰險

你在我旁邊的旁邊 但影子卻肩碰肩

偷看一眼你的唇邊是不 是也有笑意明顯



明明是昨天的事情 怎麼今天我還在經歷

一丁點回憶都能驚天又 動地

想問個愚蠢問題 我們再這樣下去

你猜會走到哪裡?



但請你不要太快解開還 沉默的情話

就讓我多著急一下再終 於得到解答

太容易的愛不是就不耐 人回味啦

像這樣觸電 就夠我快樂融化

我們就耐心培養萌芽不 要急著開花

反正有長長的日記等我 們去填滿他

在被全世界發現以前先 愉快裝傻

就這樣觸電 一直甜蜜觸電 直到爆炸



像一年四個季節 都被你變成夏天

我才會在你面前 總是被晒紅了臉

像一百萬個秋千 在我心裡面叛變

被你指尖碰到隻將我瞬 間就被蕩到天邊