I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Angels Brought Me Here...
It's been a long and winding journey
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
And walking back into the light
Into the sunset of the glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes
My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you
My miracle
Chorus
If you could see
What I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
Oooh if you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
Standing here before you
Feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams came true
Right here in front you
My miracle
Repeat Chorus
For me to be with you
I'd be forever grateful ohhhhh forever faithful
My dreams came true when I found you
My miracle
Repeat Chorus
P.S: Somehow I am currently crazy about this song recently, I also find the lyrics of the song pretty meaningful... Maybe I should play this song for my R.O.M....
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces
And walking back into the light
Into the sunset of the glory
Where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling
When I look into your eyes
My dreams came true
When I found you
I found you
My miracle
Chorus
If you could see
What I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
Oooh if you could feel
The tenderness I feel
You would know
It would be clear
That angels brought me here
Standing here before you
Feels like i've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams came true
Right here in front you
My miracle
Repeat Chorus
For me to be with you
I'd be forever grateful ohhhhh forever faithful
My dreams came true when I found you
My miracle
Repeat Chorus
P.S: Somehow I am currently crazy about this song recently, I also find the lyrics of the song pretty meaningful... Maybe I should play this song for my R.O.M....
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
New Bed Tomorrow...
After sleeping on my present bed for the past 22 years of my life, it has finally decided to break down on me. All the springs are coming loose and making a lot of creaking noise...
Bought a new bed which would be coming tomorrow.
Kind of relunctant to change my bed. It has spent so many donkey years with me until I think I am also somehow emotionally bonded with it. But too bad, the old one has got to go to give way for the new change.
Hopefully this new bed would last me until my wedding bed comes along in another at less 5 years.
Wish me luck trying to adapt to the new bed tomorrow night onwards.
Bought a new bed which would be coming tomorrow.
Kind of relunctant to change my bed. It has spent so many donkey years with me until I think I am also somehow emotionally bonded with it. But too bad, the old one has got to go to give way for the new change.
Hopefully this new bed would last me until my wedding bed comes along in another at less 5 years.
Wish me luck trying to adapt to the new bed tomorrow night onwards.
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Back To Work Tomorrow
*Sianz* going back to work tomorrow after my 1 week leave. Somehow, feel a bit relunctant to wear back that uniform and go to work.
Anyway, after this 1 week leave, I also dunno when I would get my next long leave again. I just hate the feeling of working aimlessly, not knowing when I would be having a long break again and not knowing when I would posted out this ward again.
This ward ain't that bad but I dislike the environment and ward settings, it is so demoralizing. Imagine working in an environment all made of steel just like being locked up in a cargo container. Yes, that is how my ward got its nickname called 'The Container Ward'. My ward is practically like a dumping ground. We take in those patients who have VRE and are on the verge of entering the neither world. We also take in patients who have really demanding relatives who thinks that nurses are so free to entertain their nonsensical requests. The colleagues there aren't nice too. I have fallen ill so many times after coming to the ward and I know they are thinking that I fake my MC. But unknown to them I was genuinely ill.
I wish that I can quit working for SGH as my career there is not as fruitful as I thought it would be. However, I can't. If I quit, I would be breaking my contract and for that I would need to pay SGH back around $15K. Where can I find that sort of money? Even if I manage to find that sum I would also be unwilling for SGH to earn that money. It is like I am paying them back for torturing me. So unfair! Maybe, one day if I strike lottery or Big Sweep, I might consider giving a 24hours stat resignation then throw that money into their face saying 'I Quit!'... But, dream on, ger... That would never happen to me... Thus, in the meanwhile, instead of whining on how much I dislike SGH and my current wards, it would be better that I move on with life and continue working my life out for the next 1 year.
*Sigh*
Anyway, after this 1 week leave, I also dunno when I would get my next long leave again. I just hate the feeling of working aimlessly, not knowing when I would be having a long break again and not knowing when I would posted out this ward again.
This ward ain't that bad but I dislike the environment and ward settings, it is so demoralizing. Imagine working in an environment all made of steel just like being locked up in a cargo container. Yes, that is how my ward got its nickname called 'The Container Ward'. My ward is practically like a dumping ground. We take in those patients who have VRE and are on the verge of entering the neither world. We also take in patients who have really demanding relatives who thinks that nurses are so free to entertain their nonsensical requests. The colleagues there aren't nice too. I have fallen ill so many times after coming to the ward and I know they are thinking that I fake my MC. But unknown to them I was genuinely ill.
I wish that I can quit working for SGH as my career there is not as fruitful as I thought it would be. However, I can't. If I quit, I would be breaking my contract and for that I would need to pay SGH back around $15K. Where can I find that sort of money? Even if I manage to find that sum I would also be unwilling for SGH to earn that money. It is like I am paying them back for torturing me. So unfair! Maybe, one day if I strike lottery or Big Sweep, I might consider giving a 24hours stat resignation then throw that money into their face saying 'I Quit!'... But, dream on, ger... That would never happen to me... Thus, in the meanwhile, instead of whining on how much I dislike SGH and my current wards, it would be better that I move on with life and continue working my life out for the next 1 year.
*Sigh*
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
I'm Back!!!
Okay, I am back from my vacation... The whole holiday was a totally doomed from the start... Here's why I say that:
Day 1 (Singapore -> Sunway Lagoon):
We ( My fiance and I) woke up at 0630hrs to eat breakfast and was preparing to move off when we saw dark clouds hovering over the skies. Seeing that, we immediately got changed and decided to leave my house earlier than planned just to beat the heavy downpour. The moment we reached the lobby of my house, it started to rain heavily. We tried for around 15mins to on-call a cab but all cab lines were engaged. Thus, we had to walk out to the main road to get a cab. Although we managed to get a cab soon, we were nearly drenched...
The bus ride up to sun Lagoon was okie, with clear blue skies and managed to catch a glimpse of the 'sceneries' along the highway.
We reached sun Lagoon at 1400hours and was greeted with good service at the hotel counter, checking in was smooth and the service was like total fabulous. (Five star hotel, of course lah!)
We decided to play at sun Lagoon, bought the ticket which cost RM 26 each person. We played a few games and soon, it started to drizzle and rained. Thus, all outdoor games were closed and we had to return back again once it stopped raining. The rain just killed our mood, we left the place and decided not to return back to play as we were pretty pissed at the weather.
Hence, we proceeded to have lunch at KFC and returned back to our hotel room for a shower before heading out for shopping at the shopping mall next to our hotel.
The shopping mall was indeed big, we shopped around for nearly 3 hours, bought some clothes, aromatherapy oil and bought 2 movie tickets to watch a midnight movie called "One Missed Call 2", had dinner at a chinese restaurant and proceeded back to the hotel room to rest for a while.
When we went to watch the movie, we realized that another couple was sitting comfortably on our designated seats. When my fiance asked politely them if they were in the wrong seats, they just glared at us and shifted seats without even apologizing. My goodness, so rude! Anyway, the movie was scary although there were some problems encountered by the cinema staff getting the movie started.
Day 2 (Sunway Lagoon -> Genting Highlands):
We had our free breakfast at the hotel cafe which was very delicious and got ready to leave for Genting Highlands. We checked out at 1130hours and waited for our bus, instead, a guy with long hair (like a chao HK beng) turned up and asked us to take his car. We took his car for a short distance before we were alighted to take a mini van all the way up to Genting Highlands. The van was so crammy and didn't have air-con. The windows of the front seat had to be opened to prevent the nearly 16 passengers inside it from suffocating.
We reached Genting Highland at 1345hours, took the cable car and had a hard time searching for our hotel. We walked nearly 15mins before finding it. The hotel receptionist totally sucks! Her service sucks to the max! She expected us to know our way around and asked us to find the tour agency ourselves to get the hotel room keys... She also got a bit impatient when we asked her for directions. I then got frustrated and yelled at that we are tourist and we won't know the way. It was then her attitude changed... F***ed up!
Anyway, we managed to get our room keys soon enough, we changed and wanted to go the theme park to play. So we bought the indoor and outdoor package which cost Rm42 each. We managed to have fun on a few outdoor rides when it rained AGAIN! So as usual, outdoor theme park was closed until the rain stopped (which was a few hours later and nearing closing time). Money wasted again! :(
We played the indoor games until we got hungry and settled for dinner. After dinner, we went back to our hotel room (which was damned small), had a bath, rest for 3 hours before going to the casino.
I was about to have my bath when I realized that my menses came... So suay! For all times, it chose to come on my vacation. It is not supposed to come until the 20th May... Sianz! Hate it when my menses comes at the wrong times, especially when I am having fun...
Anyway, the rest of the casino trip was unremarkable except that managed to win Rm 30 from the Jackpot.
Day 3 (Genting Highlands -> Singapore): Nothing special happened and here I am back in Singapore again. Safe and sound. Thank God!
Day 1 (Singapore -> Sunway Lagoon):
We ( My fiance and I) woke up at 0630hrs to eat breakfast and was preparing to move off when we saw dark clouds hovering over the skies. Seeing that, we immediately got changed and decided to leave my house earlier than planned just to beat the heavy downpour. The moment we reached the lobby of my house, it started to rain heavily. We tried for around 15mins to on-call a cab but all cab lines were engaged. Thus, we had to walk out to the main road to get a cab. Although we managed to get a cab soon, we were nearly drenched...
The bus ride up to sun Lagoon was okie, with clear blue skies and managed to catch a glimpse of the 'sceneries' along the highway.
We reached sun Lagoon at 1400hours and was greeted with good service at the hotel counter, checking in was smooth and the service was like total fabulous. (Five star hotel, of course lah!)
We decided to play at sun Lagoon, bought the ticket which cost RM 26 each person. We played a few games and soon, it started to drizzle and rained. Thus, all outdoor games were closed and we had to return back again once it stopped raining. The rain just killed our mood, we left the place and decided not to return back to play as we were pretty pissed at the weather.
Hence, we proceeded to have lunch at KFC and returned back to our hotel room for a shower before heading out for shopping at the shopping mall next to our hotel.
The shopping mall was indeed big, we shopped around for nearly 3 hours, bought some clothes, aromatherapy oil and bought 2 movie tickets to watch a midnight movie called "One Missed Call 2", had dinner at a chinese restaurant and proceeded back to the hotel room to rest for a while.
When we went to watch the movie, we realized that another couple was sitting comfortably on our designated seats. When my fiance asked politely them if they were in the wrong seats, they just glared at us and shifted seats without even apologizing. My goodness, so rude! Anyway, the movie was scary although there were some problems encountered by the cinema staff getting the movie started.
Day 2 (Sunway Lagoon -> Genting Highlands):
We had our free breakfast at the hotel cafe which was very delicious and got ready to leave for Genting Highlands. We checked out at 1130hours and waited for our bus, instead, a guy with long hair (like a chao HK beng) turned up and asked us to take his car. We took his car for a short distance before we were alighted to take a mini van all the way up to Genting Highlands. The van was so crammy and didn't have air-con. The windows of the front seat had to be opened to prevent the nearly 16 passengers inside it from suffocating.
We reached Genting Highland at 1345hours, took the cable car and had a hard time searching for our hotel. We walked nearly 15mins before finding it. The hotel receptionist totally sucks! Her service sucks to the max! She expected us to know our way around and asked us to find the tour agency ourselves to get the hotel room keys... She also got a bit impatient when we asked her for directions. I then got frustrated and yelled at that we are tourist and we won't know the way. It was then her attitude changed... F***ed up!
Anyway, we managed to get our room keys soon enough, we changed and wanted to go the theme park to play. So we bought the indoor and outdoor package which cost Rm42 each. We managed to have fun on a few outdoor rides when it rained AGAIN! So as usual, outdoor theme park was closed until the rain stopped (which was a few hours later and nearing closing time). Money wasted again! :(
We played the indoor games until we got hungry and settled for dinner. After dinner, we went back to our hotel room (which was damned small), had a bath, rest for 3 hours before going to the casino.
I was about to have my bath when I realized that my menses came... So suay! For all times, it chose to come on my vacation. It is not supposed to come until the 20th May... Sianz! Hate it when my menses comes at the wrong times, especially when I am having fun...
Anyway, the rest of the casino trip was unremarkable except that managed to win Rm 30 from the Jackpot.
Day 3 (Genting Highlands -> Singapore): Nothing special happened and here I am back in Singapore again. Safe and sound. Thank God!
Sunday, May 15, 2005
On Vacation
Hurray! Finally, my long awaited vacation trip to Genting Highlands and Sunway Lagoon is around the corner.... Farewell my friends, I would be gone from Monday (16 May 2005) morning to Wednesday night (18 May 2005).
Don't forget to miss me while I am gone, okie? :P
I would be going with my fiance, our virgin trip overseas together. Something like a pre-honeymoon trip before the real one next year. Hahaha, think it is going to be very fun, because I can 'bully' him and have all the liberty to enjoy myself to the fullest! I am going be very wild and de-stress myself. Just thinking of all the fun I am gonna get makes me wish that time will fly faster to tomorrow... Another 18hours more...
However, it is only gonna be a short trip of 3 days... :(
When I am back from my trip, I will enter my blog again and share with you people my experience, okie? Wait for my return...
Don't forget to miss me while I am gone, okie? :P
I would be going with my fiance, our virgin trip overseas together. Something like a pre-honeymoon trip before the real one next year. Hahaha, think it is going to be very fun, because I can 'bully' him and have all the liberty to enjoy myself to the fullest! I am going be very wild and de-stress myself. Just thinking of all the fun I am gonna get makes me wish that time will fly faster to tomorrow... Another 18hours more...
However, it is only gonna be a short trip of 3 days... :(
When I am back from my trip, I will enter my blog again and share with you people my experience, okie? Wait for my return...
Thursday, May 12, 2005
Birthday Today
Well, had my birthday today and yes, the day is coming to an end.
Had fun...
- Ate dinner at Shatec (Great service!)
- Had a birthday cake (Hello Kitty)
- Spent time with my dad and my fiance
Tomorrow, is gonna be another great day 'cause it is CW's BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
Happy 22nd Birthday, Ger! Yes, it is your turn to grow older and be another step closer to the age of 30. *Sigh* Must admit that we are growing older and not getting any younger. Anyways, I sincerely hope that you would find the man of your dreams soon and be happily in love. Still waiting for your 'red' card, okie?
Had fun...
- Ate dinner at Shatec (Great service!)
- Had a birthday cake (Hello Kitty)
- Spent time with my dad and my fiance
Tomorrow, is gonna be another great day 'cause it is CW's BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!
Happy 22nd Birthday, Ger! Yes, it is your turn to grow older and be another step closer to the age of 30. *Sigh* Must admit that we are growing older and not getting any younger. Anyways, I sincerely hope that you would find the man of your dreams soon and be happily in love. Still waiting for your 'red' card, okie?
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
365 Days More...
365 days before my R.O.M!
I know that it is still a long way before it happens but somehow, I am starting to feel a bit jittery and kind of nervous about it. R.O.M to some people doesn't mean much, but to me, it is like signing a contract of my future.
The future is full of uncertainties and signing my future happiness means a big deal to me. I mean, which woman doesn't want to be happily married to the guy they love? Which woman doesn't want the guy they love to also love them back as much? Which woman wants their marriage to end up in divorce? Which woman would enjoy knowing the fact that their husband has extra-marital affair after 5/10/15/20 years of marriage? Which woman would be glad to realize that their marriage is failing?
I know that I should not be having so many pessimistic thoughts and should trust my guy totally... However, I can't help but to think of the worst case scenario because it is in reality those situations I mention above does happen!
Oh, can someone please reassure me that my marriage would be a happy ending one? Could someone kindly let me know that the anxiety I am going through is perfectly normal? Could anyone please let me know that I wouldn't suffer or regret of my decision made after that eventful day of 10 May 2006?
I know that it is still a long way before it happens but somehow, I am starting to feel a bit jittery and kind of nervous about it. R.O.M to some people doesn't mean much, but to me, it is like signing a contract of my future.
The future is full of uncertainties and signing my future happiness means a big deal to me. I mean, which woman doesn't want to be happily married to the guy they love? Which woman doesn't want the guy they love to also love them back as much? Which woman wants their marriage to end up in divorce? Which woman would enjoy knowing the fact that their husband has extra-marital affair after 5/10/15/20 years of marriage? Which woman would be glad to realize that their marriage is failing?
I know that I should not be having so many pessimistic thoughts and should trust my guy totally... However, I can't help but to think of the worst case scenario because it is in reality those situations I mention above does happen!
Oh, can someone please reassure me that my marriage would be a happy ending one? Could someone kindly let me know that the anxiety I am going through is perfectly normal? Could anyone please let me know that I wouldn't suffer or regret of my decision made after that eventful day of 10 May 2006?
Monday, May 09, 2005
Birthday Meaning...
Your Birthdate: May 12
Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude.You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.
PS: Those in bold are pretty true...
Being born on the 12th day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, sometimes "couldn't care less" attitude.You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving - but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.
PS: Those in bold are pretty true...
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Sadness
If you look into my eyes
All you'll see is pain
If you try to find the hapiness, your efforts will be in vain
Many people have tried and all of them have failed..
Still to this day it is to no available single shred of joy
In these lonely eyes of mine
Even if I try to hide it
Somehow they always show...and make the truth about me known
Sure I may look happy
But that's only a disguise that distracts people from these pain-filled eyes of mine...
Even if I'm not truly happy
Truth be told, I'm better that way
Yet always because of my eyes the true horrors of my heart are shown
People often worry but I tell them I'm ok
Don't worry about me though...
The pain will all be gone someday...
All you'll see is pain
If you try to find the hapiness, your efforts will be in vain
Many people have tried and all of them have failed..
Still to this day it is to no available single shred of joy
In these lonely eyes of mine
Even if I try to hide it
Somehow they always show...and make the truth about me known
Sure I may look happy
But that's only a disguise that distracts people from these pain-filled eyes of mine...
Even if I'm not truly happy
Truth be told, I'm better that way
Yet always because of my eyes the true horrors of my heart are shown
People often worry but I tell them I'm ok
Don't worry about me though...
The pain will all be gone someday...
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